Youbrat's Writing Archive (![[info]](http://l-stat.livejournal.com/img/userinfo.gif){kind=small} mmm___pete) wrote,@ 2006-10-02 20:59:00 |
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This is Bullshit (16/?)
Title: This is bullshit (16/?)
Authors:howido_fics & youbrat
Pairing: Brendon/Ryan
Rating: R
Summary: A night at the studio with Alex.
Disclaimer: *sigh*
Author’s Note: This is a co-write.howido_fics is Brendon, youbrat is Ryan. Ryan's pov is in blue and Bren's is normal black.
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Alex had called me about an hour ago to let me know that he was meeting Spencer and the guys at the studio, and he wanted me to come join them. I agreed to seeing as how it'd been a while since I'd even stepped foot into a studio and besides all of that, I wanted to see what Spence and the guys would come up with and how their stuff would sound. I spent some time getting ready and grabbing some drinks and food to bring with me because I knew that Alex wouldn't have thought to bring anything for himself.
I drove over to the studio, wondering if Brendon would be there or not. I hadn't seen him in a few days, not since his party on Saturday. I'd been busy with LA plans and shopping and stuff, and he'd been busy with school stuff and work. It was Wednesday, so that meant it had been over three days since I saw him. I missed him, but I couldn't expect to be with him every day, and besides, we had the phone for phone calls.
We'd had an amazing night Friday night under the stars, and that boy had an amazing skill with his fingers and his hands. He learned a little more about me that night, about my triggers and about what got me off, and I did my best to let him know every move that he made that I liked. I wanted to help him gain some confidence with me and the whole sexual situation, and I have to say, I wasn't let down in the slightest. Saturday had been a lot of fun, what I remember of the party at least. I was a bit tied up in Brendon with the occasional interruption of the other guys. Alex and Spence had hit it off and the group of them pretty much spent the night talking about their first studio session together. Alex had been all excited and desperate to get into the studio with them.
I pulled up to the studio and got out of my car. My understanding was they'd already had one session with Alex on Monday, so this was their second time with him in the studio, and they'd gotten things working well. It seemed, according to Alex, that they worked really well together. He was determined to have the CD done before we left for LA so that we could bring it with us in the hopes of giving it to someone like Pete Wentz or to get it to Adam. Alex liked the idea of trying to get their band into Fueled by Ramen or Decaydance, and I have to say I completely agreed with him, I thought they'd do well as an FBR band.
I groaned as I walked out of the Smoothie place to my car. It was hell tonight. For a Wednesday night, it sucked like no other. I just wanted to go home and talk to Ryan on the phone, or better yet, i should stop by. I missed seeing him, and it seemed the only time we did was on the weekend. Speaking of the weekend, Saturday went ok. It ended up raining so my parents stayed in with my cousins, but we had the basement to ourselves, and as childish as it may have been, I locked the door to keep them out. I was glad Alex came over. I began to realize that he was a cool guy and we could have fun together.
Getting into my car, I turned on my phone and waited for it to come on. I was planning on calling Ryan and seeing if I could come over, since it was my only time off this week thanks to some girl’s grandmother dying, and the studio session we had.
Shit. Speaking of studio sessions, I got a text from Spence that I was supposed to be there tonight. I groaned again. My whole body ached. Luckily though, I had a sub for art, so I got all my homework done then. I called my parents quickly to tell them I was going to the studio and that indeed, my homework was done. And decided that I would give Ryan a call on the way home, to keep me awake.
I put the Sugarcult on repeat in my car, when the song “Las Angeles” came on, I placed the song on repeat, singing it over and over to warm up my vocals. Hopefully I wouldn’t have to sing tonight, cause honestly I wasn’t in the mood. Parking in the back, I walked to the side door and pounded on it a few times since it was after hours, and I knew the front was closed. I stood there, tapping my feet as I waited for someone to answer.
Alex met me at the door, he was apparently waiting for me to show up with something for him to eat. I laughed and shook my head as he grabbed my hand and pretty much dragged me into the area of the studio where there was a couch set up. I smiled at the rest of the guys as he led me in. He plopped down on the couch and pulled me onto his lap.
"So Ry, what'd you bring me?" he wiggled his eyebrows, and I had to laugh. He put his hands on my legs as I opened up the bag that I brought, pulling out a bunch of bottles, some of water, some soda and some of juice, I also pulled out some sandwiches, some fruit, some chips, a package of Oreos and a few other things I managed to find in the kitchen.
"You guys want anything? Have at it." I grinned and leaned back against Alex as he grabbed a bottle of water and took a drink. He rested his chin on my shoulder as the guys scrambled for food and drinks. I smiled and glanced at him out of the corner of my eye. He waited until the guys got what they wanted before he grabbed something to eat too.
"So, do you think I qualify for band manager?" I grinned and winked over at Spencer.
I smiled as Steve opened the door, pulling me into a hug. “Hey man, ‘bout time we got here, we were just talking about your boy for being our manager!”
“What?” I asked as I followed him down the hall. Ryan, our manager?
“Yeah, he brought us food and stuff, and mentioned something about being our manager, and we were all like, cool, but you know, you get the final vote, cause you know, you are like his or something.”
I laughed, “Oh, I’m his or something...Wait?” I pulled him around, “You mean Ryan is here?” he nodded, and I shoved him out of the way, finding a new wave of energy as i ran down the hall and bust through the door.
I saw a few people jump as I waved to them sliding over to Ryan who was sitting on Alex, “Sorry, Alex, I’m gonna borrow him for a few minutes!” I grabbed Ryan’s wrist and pulled him up to meet me in a hungry kiss. I could hear the guys laughing and hollering at us, but I didn’t care. I continued to kiss him like it was the last day of the rest of my life.
Pulling back, I grinned, “Fuck, I needed that!” I smoothed down his hair that I managed to mess up, “And what is this I hear about you wanting to be our manager?”
I laughed when Brendon burst into the room and grabbed me out of Alex's lap and kissed me hard and hungry. I held onto him and kissed him back until he pulled away. All the guys were laughing and cat calling, and it was rather embarrassing, but at the same time...I had needed that too. I'd missed Brendon.
"I was only kinda joking...I mean, you guys got a producer." I glanced over my shoulder at Alex who looked a little disappointed we had stopped kissing. "You're gonna need a manager." I shrugged a little. "It was a thought...not that I actually know what I'd need to do, but I can learn that stuff."
I smiled and felt Alex's hands on my sides, using me to help pull himself up off the couch. "C'mon Brendon, you know you want your boyfriend as your manager, especially when we score you a record deal, and you guys start touring. You couldn't want to go on tour without him!"
I laughed and nudged Alex until he flopped back down on the couch, unfortunately I didn't gage it correctly cause he still had his hands holding onto my sides, and he ended up pulling me down with him. Laughing I collapsed against him and looked up at Brendon. "Apparently they're giving you the last word. So I guess its up to you."
I grinned up at him from Alex's lap as I reached over for the package of Oreos and opened it, grabbing one and nibbling on it as I waited, looking up at him through the hair over my eyes.
I smirked, pushing the hair of his face, and cupping his chin. Turning to look around at the guys, I got a lot of smiles and a few shrugs, “Well, considering we don’t really need a manager to actually do their duties until we actually have enough material to actually ‘tour’ with, I guess we could sign you up now, and at your internship, you can learn from other managers...” I leaned in and kissed him on the lips, then looked over his shoulder, “And you are right, I would need him on tour with me to keep me coming and going,” I winked.
“So,” I placed my hands on my hips, “I guess the answer is yes, if you would like to be our manager, you have the job!”
I smiled as Spencer came over and jumped on my back, “WE HAVE A MANAGER!!!!!! AND A PRODUCER AND A MERCH CHICK AND A GOOD LEAD SINGER AND A KICKASS GUITARIST AND A TALENTED KEYBOARDIST AND A ROCKIN’ BASSIST AND A SEXY PRODUCER!” he jumped off my back and cover his mouth.
“And an embarrassed drummer!” I laughed, patting him on the shoulder, “Spence, i never knew that about you,” I winked causing all the guys to laugh.
I laughed and looked over at Alex and raised my eyebrows. "So Spence thinks you're sexy, what do you think about that?"
Alex laughed and shrugged. "He doesn't know me, he'll decide otherwise once he does."
I shook my head and leaned back against Alex, feeling his arms slip around my waist as I watched Bren and the other guys in the band. They were happy, they were really happy. I sighed softly and rested my head against his, laying my hands over his on my stomach. The idea of being their manager, with Alex their producer, it all seemed like it would work if they got to the point of touring, which I hoped that they would. Although I never imagined everything would turn into what it had. I never imagined I'd end up being a manager for a band.
Alex watched with me as we watched the guys. He started playing with my fingers a little, and I glanced over at him. He leaned in and whispered into my ear. "Is it significant that Spencer thinks I'm sexy? I mean...is this a big deal?"
I smiled a little and shrugged. To be honest, I didn't know if it was a big deal or not.
I followed the guys into the booth that had their equipment set up. Grabbing a towel, I twisted it and snapped it at Spencer’s butt. “What was that all about?” I asked as he sat behind his set.
“What?” he questioned innocently.
I shook my head, spinning him around in my chair, “Come on Spence, you know what I am talking about, Alex...being cute? Or wait, was it sexy?”
He shrugged, “He is, I guess, i mean, if I were gay, I would think he is cute...”
“If you were gay...right...” I raised a brow before turning him around on the stool and moving to grab a mic.
“Let’s warm up with a oldie, whadaya say?” I walked around whispering my request in their ears as the tuned their instruments. Spencer started on the drums, then the guitar picked in with some keys added. Once the bass played, I started tapping my feet, “I’m only pretty sure, that I can’t take anymore, before you take a swing, i wonder, what are we fighting for...”
Alex rubbed my stomach through my shirt, causing me to turn my head and look up at him. He smiled softly and kissed my temple. "Have I told you lately that you're my best friend, and I'd die without you in my life?"
I raised my eyebrows a little, wondering what was going on that was causing all this sentiment as well as the very snugly nature I'd walked in to find him in. I smiled and shook my head. "No. But I know it anyway because I feel the same."
He pulled me in closer against him, just holding me tightly as we listened to the guys warming up in the booth. "Think they'd let their producer go on tour with them too? I mean, I could be your assistant or something. God, I'd do anything if I'd get to go with you guys."
I smiled and turned in his lap, facing him while his arms were still around my waist. "I'm sure we could work something out when the time comes 'lex. But what's going on? What's gotten into you tonight?"
I watched him shrug a little before he looked up at me. There was something almost haunted in his eyes and it worried me. "I just...I have this feeling..." He shook his head. "I just feel like I'm going to lose you or something Ry."
I slid my hands up to his cheeks and looked into his eyes. "You aren't going to lose me Alex, okay? I'm not going anywhere. You're stuck with me for three months in LA, remember? You're stuck with me like I'm stuck with you. You're just lucky that I love you so much that I'm glad to be stuck with you." I grinned down at him and pressed my lips to his in a quick kiss. "Rylex, remember? I'm not going anywhere."
He grinned a little and nodded, holding me tightly against himself like a teddy bear as we waited for the guys to finish warming up.
We continued practicing a few more songs then James wanted to go take a smoke break so I stayed in the booth with Spence. I wanted to go hangout with Ryan, but Spencer motioned for me to come over to him, so I did. “What’s up?” I asked.
“How can you deal with that?”
I gave him a weird look, “Um, with what?” I sat cross-legged behind his set and leaned against the wall.
He leaned in, “With Alex and Ryan being like that all the time, shouldn’t you be the one holding him like that?”
I shrugged, “Dude, their friends, they’ve been through a lot together...” What’s the big deal?
Laughing, “Right, just friends, if I was dating a girl and her,” he lifted his fingers to do quotes, “’best guy friend’ was all over her, I’d be out in no time...come on Bren, you are smarter than that...”
I crossed my arms over my chest, “Smarter than what? They are friends, Spence, and they have been through a lot...”
“Yeah,” he interrupted, “You already said that, have they ever dated?”
“No, just casual sex,” his mouth dropped, “What? It was when they both wanted it. They didn’t date, they just did it when they were lonely or needed a friend...”
Spencer shook his head, “Did you just listen to a word you said? Come on, Bren...what if Ryan gets lonely in LA? You’d be tore up, and this coming from the most jealous guy I have ever met...”
I jumped to my feet, “Well, what do you want me to do? Break up with him?” I tried to storm past him but he stopped me.
Gripping my shoulders, “Brendon, I’m just worried that you will get hurt, and I don’t want that, I know you aren’t stupid, and I know you know what you are doing with him, but I just want you to be careful, and tell him if it’s bothering you, and if he sticks with you, you know it is real, but if he takes Alex’s side, then maybe it isn’t.”
“Spencer, you don’t know what the hell you are talking about, ok. I trust Ryan!”
“Oh what? You’ve known him a whole month?”
I narrowed my eyes at him, “Oh, and full month is enough time for you to ask him to be our manager?”
“That’s a complete different thing, and don’t change the subject!” I tried to walk away again, but he pulled me back, “Just, Bren, look me in the eyes, and tell me you aren’t jealous, or it doesn’t hurt you, and I will drop the whole thing.”
I looked him straight in the eye and didn’t know what to say. Personally, I wanted to run. I opened my mouth as James came busting back in the room, “Come on! Breaks over, we’ve got fifteen minutes left, let’s get a few songs in.”
God I wanted to kiss him! Spence looked at me and sighed, “This isn’t over...” he whispered as he sat back on his stool, and I grabbed the mic again.
I looked up when James left the booth and raised my eyebrows when no one else left. I waited, wondering if they were done or what was going on when James came back. Laughing I got out of Alex's lap. "I think you're up for being all producery."
Alex chuckled and shook his head as he stood up and led me over to the control board. He plopped down on the chair and tugged me down to rest on his leg while he prepared to record. He played around with a few things before he pressed a button and initiated the intercom. "Are you guys ready to record something?"
I smiled and waved at Brendon before leaning in to speak into the intercom as well. "I wanna hear you sing for me Bren." I winked at him through the glass and took a drink of Alex's bottle of water but frowned when I saw Spencer's face. I felt like something was off and wrong, just looking into his face, and I didn't know what it was, but something just told me that.
I frowned and looked over at Alex, murmuring so the intercom wouldn't pick it up. "Spence doesn't look happy..." I bit my lip, feeling unsure. He slid his arm around my hips and pulled me closer, whispering his own response. "I'm sure its nothing Ry."
I nodded a little and looked back, smiling at Brendon but still feeling a little apprehensive about the look on Spencer's face.
I stepped up to the mic, glancing back at Spencer who was giving the guys on the other side of the glass an evil glare. “Spence,” I clapped, “In the game,” passing him a knowing glance that was a mixture of knock it off and shut the hell up.
Sighing, I bit my lip, waiting for the band to start playing a song. It was something small Spence and I wrote once when we were bored. Kinda of a slow song, but it does show off my vocals, so I like it.
Once it kicked in, I started singing, “Da-da-dada-da-da”
Dancing around the booth, I couldn’t stand still, I really wanted to get out of there. Every time I looked at Spencer, he shot me these rude looks, and it was killing me, “You had my heart in your ha-ands, you had my heart so don’t, don’t let it go, don’t let it go...”
I knew our conversation would pick back up where it left off, but I kept singing, hoping I wasn’t fucking up the words as I did so. Steve sang back ups as we all sang the bridge, and they stopped playing clapping along with the drums and acoustic guitar.
“OH! You had my heart in your hand, you had my heart so don’t let it go! DON’T LET IT GOOOO,” i smiled at Ryan, “Don’t let it go! Check my pressure, patch me right up, you’re too good to be!” Clapping again, “Da-dad-dada-da-da....” I whispered, “You’re too good to be....”
Once we finished we all got up and cheered. That was the first time we played that song all the way through, and honestly, it sounded great!
I got up from Alex's lap after the song was done and went back to the couch. I could still hear them and see them from there, but the difference was I couldn't see Spencer. I picked up the package of Oreos and ate one immediately. Oreos were one of my comfort foods. I loved them and they made me feel better.
Alex did a few things at the board, what I only assume was finishing the recording of that song. Once he was done doing whatever he was doing he got up and came over, grabbing an Oreo for himself. "Are you okay Ry?"
I bit my lip and nodded a little, not looking up at him. He ran his free hand through my hair and sat down next to me. "You're thinking that Spencer is mad because of something to do with you. Aren't you Ry?"
I shrugged a little, and he sighed. "Maybe I shouldn't have come."
He shook his head and put the Oreos to the side, pulling me into a hug. "No, Ry, its good that you did. If they have a problem with you or me then they need to just tell us. They said they wanted you as their manager. Even Spencer said he did. So whatever has him pissed off...well, it can't be that important. Okay?"
I nodded against him and closed his eyes. "Why does our friendship always raise so many eyebrows and cause so many problems 'Lex?"
He shrugged a little. "Because our friendship is and always will be controversial. Because our friendship is not normally and commonly accepted by the general populace of the nation or the world. Because our friendship is something they don't understand and they always fear or are speculative about things they do not understand. Because other people look at our friendship and automatically assume we are dating or having sex or about to have sex. Because this world is closed minded and intolerant and they can't just handle two best friends who are entirely and utterly open with each other and comfortable with who they are together."
I smiled softly and hugged him tightly. "When did you get so smart 'Lex?" I looked up at him with a real smile.
He chuckled and shrugged. "Maybe the smarts came in when the ink went into my skin."
I raised my eyebrows. "You got a tattoo and didn't tell me!? You asshole!" I shoved him and then laughed as he wiggled his eyebrows.
"I'll show you it later Ry. I think we should get back to work right now." I nodded in response as he got up and went back to the board. "You guys wanna do one more before we call it a night?"
“Spencer, please,” I walked over to him, “Cut it out, ok. It’s not your problem, and it isn’t even a problem, I am falling for him, and I trust him, so chill, please, I’m cool with it. Why can’t you be?”
He sighed, looking up, “I just don’t want to see you get hurt is all.”
Smiling, I placed my hand on his shoulder as I squatted down to be eye level with him, “Spence, I’m gonna get hurt eventually, and this is something that I can deal with and have dealt with, yes, I have cried over it, but that’s just it, I am over it, so please, you be too? For me?” I pouted, “They’re our producer and manager, and it’ll work out, I promise. So no worries ok? They have just a tight relationship...”
“What,” Kyle asked, “Cause they have their hands all over each other all the time?”
“FUCK! Not you too,” I looked between the two of them, “You guys can make a big high school deal over it, but I’m not. So get the fuck over it, if it bothers you, let ‘em know. But when Ry and I are together, I know who he’s really boyfriends with...and that’s all that matters...so drop it and let’s do another song.”
Kyle shrugged as he went back to his mic stand and fiddle with the guitar until Spence started the beat.
I chuckled at Alex and got back up, going over to the window and quirked my eyebrow at Brendon, beckoning him toward the window. I looked over at Alex. "Thank you, for being sane when I'm not."
He laughed and shook his head. "Its cause I love you Ryry. If I didn't, I'd go just as crazy as you."
I shook my head. "Isn't it supposed to be something like, we're best friends so we go crazy together? Or is it supposed to be that you stay sane when I go crazy and vice versa?" I furrowed my eyebrows in thought and laughed when he just shrugged.
I turned back to the window to see Brendon there and grinned. I leaned forward and kissed the glass right in front of him. I'd have kissed him if there hadn't been glass between us anyway.
I smiled at Ryan as he kissed the glass. It was a cute gesture, but I’d be damned if I touched that nasty glass, we weren’t in the best part of town, so I don’t know what kind of hoes have been on that thing, plus, even if the people did clean it, the taste of Windex doesn’t sound good in the evening. So I placed me hand over the spot and winked at him so I could continue singing.
Knowing he was watching, I danced around and shook my ass, fooling with the bassist as we snag back and forth. Steve was gay too, and we always had fun goofing off. At a party once, we pissed everyone off cause we spent the whole night doing the scenes from Dumb and Dumber, like, “Mock,” “Yeah,” it was fun!
Trying not to laugh, cause we might mess up the vocals, I smiled at him and rocked back and forth with his bass. Shaking my head before almost tripping over James as he played the keys. Oops. See what happens when I like to have fun?
Once the song was finished, we immediately started packing up the stuff, since we all has school in the morning, and it was getting late.
Alex did a few things on the board while the guys were playing the song and I smiled, laughing at Brendon and shaking my head. I stepped away from the glass and Alex reached out for me, tugging me over to him and into his lap again. He leaned up and whispered into my ear. "You're gonna fall in love with that kid, aren't you?"
I blushed a little and shrugged some, tearing my eyes away from Brendon to look down at Alex again. "I dunno. I guess its possible. He's a lot of fun 'lex. I love being with him. In love though? I dunno...the closest I've ever come to 'being in love' is us...I dunno what it feels like, but maybe."
Grinning I looked back through the window at the guys. My guys since I was now the manager of them. I told myself I was going to have to try and find out all the details of a manager's job while I was in LA so that I could be the best manager they could ever want.
I felt Alex tugging me in a little tighter to him and I leaned back against him, keeping my eyes on Brendon though. "You're gonna fall in love with him and forget all about lil 'ol me."
I turned back to catch the biggest pout on his lips. "No pouting Alex. You know I could never forget about you!"
"You better not!" He smiled and turned back to end the recording once they were done playing. "Sounds like they're done. Are you two going out after or are you heading home?"
Tilting my head to the side I rested it against Alex's. "I dunno. I haven't talked to him about it yet. I will though when we're all done. And I'll let you know. If we're not, you wanna do something?"
"Why do you think I was asking?"
Once we got everything packed up, I walked out, carrying my mic. And, well, that’s about it...
Walking out of the studio, I smiled at Ryan and Alex making my way over to him and licking Ryan’s cheek. “Hey stud muffin, what you doin’ tonight?” I giggled as I pocketed the mic, pulling him out of Alex’s grasp and kissing him, “I’m so happy to see you here. I had the worst day ever and as soon as Steve told me you were in the studio, I automatically cheered up!”
I kissed him again, this time wrapping my arms around him, bringing him closer to me. Pulling back, “I enjoy kissing you way too much, you know that? It’s like an addiction I can’t shake!” I smiled as I pecked him lightly on the mouth.
“GET A ROOM!” James laughed as he made his way out of the studio, “And, as our manager, you sure the hell better not play favorites! We all get to sleep in your bed when we go on tour, not just Bubble Butt over here,” he laughed, and I grasped my ass.
“I do not have a bubble butt! It’s just pleasantly plump and sexy as ever in my tight dress slacks!” I laughed.
I practically wrapped myself around Brendon when he pulled me into him. I was perfectly happy to kiss him for as long as he wanted me to. Unfortunately for the two of us and our lips the rest of the guys just had to make a scene and break us apart. I pouted a little and sighed but then raised my eyebrows at James.
"Wait, why are you all getting to sleep in my bed? Maybe no one but me is sleeping in my bed when we're on tour, did you think about that?" I gave James a weird look while Alex was laughing. "Shut up asshole!"
Alex smirked and got up. "But Ry, you know you won't be the only one in your bed so why are you even trying to say that?"
I shook my head and leaned in to whisper into Brendon's ear. "Your ass is cute enough, now are you going to let them all demand to sleep in my bed?"
I pouted a little at Brendon as Alex moved behind me and wrapped his arms around us, making a Ryan sandwich. I couldn't have been happier than being there in both their arms, my two favorite boys in the world.
I laughed at all of them specially Ryan for getting worried, “It’s ok, you can sleep like this...” I smirked as I wrapped my arms around Alex too, “And you can drink like this and eat like this, and bungee jump likes this, as long as I get to be on your back side a few times,” I winked, “They then we’ll be good!”
Wiggling out of their grasp, I walked back in to help Spencer get his drum set picked up, “Look,” I held his shoulders, “I can tell when I kiss him that he’s cool and trustworthy. And will you, for the sake of me, just believe that?” he nodded, “But, if anything were ever to happen,” I held out my pinkie like we just to do as kids, and he linked his as mine, “I give you every right to tell me ‘I told you so!’ as you are comforting me,” I smiled pulling him into a hug.
“I love you Bren.”
“I love you too Spencer-roo!” laughing at our old nickname, “Need some help?” He nodded, so I grabbed the bass drum and headed out to his suv. Must be nice to be a spoiled brat...haha...but even nicer to have them as your friend.
After making a few trips to get everything in his vehicle, I pulled Ryan into me, “I have to be home in like twenty minutes, wanna walk me to my car?” I asked, winking.
I leaned back against Alex when Brendon pulled away and looked at the other guys. "Yeah, so, um...no, you guys won't be in my bed on tour. Bren might, if you let Alex come, maybe, but you guys...that'd be a bit full for a bed. And on top of that, I'm not sure I want to be sharing my bed with you guys!"
I grinned to be sure my words weren't harsh and looked up at Alex before I pulled away to gather up the food and stuff. I watched Bren lug Spencer's stuff out to his car and waited for him to come back. I laughed when he tugged me to him and snuggled against him a little. "I hate your stupid curfew you know Bren? I wish you could stay out later with us. I'm thinking I wanna go get some food and stuff."
Pouting at Brendon I heard Alex whoop at the mention of food. "Pizza! We gotta go get pizza! Who else is in?!"
I laughed and shook my head before murmuring. "I'll walk you to your car of course. I just wish you could come get food with us."
I heard Kyle and James say they would go as I laced my hands with Ryan, walking to my car, “You hate my curfew? Imagine living it...” I laughed as we made it outside.
“Tonight was pretty successful? Don’t you think?” I asked him as I sat on the hood of my car, pulling him between my legs. Leaning forward, I kissed him as I slid my hands in his back pockets, squeezing softly while running my tongue along his upper lip.
We continued kissing for a few moments when I broke apart. Licking my lips, I tasted him on me, “Mmm, Oreos,” I laughed before taking his hand and placing both of mine around his. Chills ran up and down my spine as I looked in his eyes. I knew it was there. It was right there at that moment that I knew I could trust him. And that everything was going to be all right. And that he felt the same.
Wrapping my legs around him to pull him closer, “I wish I could go with you guys too, and I wish I could spend the night in you bed, in your arms...”
I sighed softly and slid my arms up and around Brendon's neck. "It did go well tonight. Except for the times when I thought I was going to die from the looks of death Spencer was giving off..."
I trailed off and played with the hair at the base of his skull. "That was because of me and Alex, isn't it? Spence's looks of death. It was because I was being far too affectionate with Alex and vice versa. Right?"
I bit my lip for a moment and then shrugged a little. "I wish you could come too Bren. There's no way you could call your parents and get them to give you another hour to grab some food with all of us and then go straight home? I know I won't get lucky enough to have you in bed with me tonight, or any other night before I leave for LA. But having you go for food with us would be great...especially since it was after a studio session and all. They won't give even a little bit?"
I knew I shouldn't even have been asking, but I wanted him there. If for no other reason, I wanted him there so Spence didn't try to kill me with death glares. If Bren was there I could at least hide behind him because he wouldn't direct them at Bren. Although, I could hide behind Alex, Spence thought he was hot, so maybe he wouldn't glare at him like that, but at the same time if he's mad at me for being close to Alex, maybe he'd changed his mind on Alex too. I pouted a little. I hated the situation where I had to say goodnight to him too early in my opinion.
“Spence is just being overprotective,” I dropped his hand to place them on his hips so he would look directly at me, “And yes, it’s because of you and Alex’s physical relationship, but he knows I am fine with it, and he promised he would be too as long as he know I am not hurting or anything over it, and I’m not, so don’t worry about him, he’s all bark and no bite,” I moved him closer to me, whispering in his ear after licking and breathing lightly on it, “I think he’s jealous too...”
I laughed, “Either way,” I sat back on the hood, “I wish I could, I mean, my parents might give in, but I’m really tired myself, from school to the studio to work, I need sleep. I miss it, now only,” I tapped my mouth, “If I could get this sexy person out of my mind so I could sleep at night and not spend hours daydreaming and wanting,” I winked, “And needing to touch myself, life would be a whole lot easier...”
Kissing him again, I smiled into it as I ran my hands up and down his sides, tickling his rib cage.
I laughed and kissed him back, pressing him back against the hood of his car and leaning on top of him. I kissed him deeply and passionately before pulling back to whisper. "Jealous of me? Or jealous of you? Or jealous of Alex? Is it because of the 'sexy producer' comment he let slip earlier? You think he's jealous that Alex's hands are all over me and just me?"
I smirked softly down at him before leaning in to kiss him again. Sighing softly I pulled back and licked my lips. "Mmm, you taste good." I grinned and winked at him. "I'm sorry you're so...well, distracted lately. Is there anything I can do to help that distraction? I'm guessing not tonight though. Sadly."
Reaching up I brushed my fingers across his cheek before leaning back against the hood of the car over him. "You know, its pretty hot seeing you sprawled out on the hood of your car. Makes me want to strip you naked and have you right here right now. Public display and all. Just imagine if all the guys poured out of the building while we were." I winked and leaned in to kiss him again.
Good, maybe I could make him believe that Spence is jealous if Alex, cause he likes him or something, instead of him just defending me...
“No, Spence told me if he were gay, he’d think Alex was cute, so, you know, he prolly wants a little of that action too, hell if he got some, it might help transfer him to the dark side...” I wiggled my brows.
Watching him tower over me, I smiled, “You could always come over to my place for a while and, you know, watch a movie or something...I’m sure my parents won’t mind...but you’ve got pizza and stuff to do, don’t wanna spend anytime with poor old me,” I fake pouted and whined, barely able to hold back a laugh.
Wrapping my feet tighter around him, I yanked him into me more, “And here I thought I was a cock tease, you know how uncomfortable it is gonna be for me to drive home with a hard-on now? That is,” I winked, “If you wanted to fix it...” I took his hand and placed it over my crotch, “Just your words and simple kisses do that to me.” I whispered before kissing him roughly.
"Brendon, you're absolutely amazing." I grinned down at him and rubbed him softly through his pants. "I could take you here if you wanted me to. You and me. Under the stars, on the hood of your car..." Looking into his eyes I licked my lips. Moving my hand up I tugged the bottom of his shirt up before leaning down and kissing, nibbling and sucking across his stomach. I kept my eyes on his before pausing.
"Alex hasn't said anything about Spence to indicate interest. However, if we're going to be spending a lot of time together he just might...unless he falls in love with someone in LA, which I wouldn't put past him. He has a thing for William Beckett." I grinned, just leaving myself down between his legs and looking up at him from his stomach. I wanted to go to his house with him and watch a movie, but I also wanted to grab some food, I was hungry and those Oreos hadn't done what I wanted them to do.
"What if we go grab pizza and then I can come back to your house? I'm really hungry, and pizza sounds so good right now. So, I can go get a late dinner with the guys and then come over. Unless you're going to be asleep?"
I groaned as he played with my tummy. I think he’s found a soft spot.
“No, no, Spence is straight as a nail, at least last time I saw him making out with a girl he was, but that could change, and Beckett huh? He’s too tall and feminine for me. What is your type, I mean, who are you gonna drool over and wish you didn’t have a boyfriend when you see them in LA?”
I smirked, I knew if he went and got pizza that it would be too late, plus, I’m sure I was coming close to my curfew as we spoke, “No, you go get pizza and hang with the guys and let the Mormon kid head home and jerk off to some porn, it would work if you came over now, but not once the pizza thing happened. And I couldn’t stand to eat,” I poked my stomach, “I’m gaining weight...”
I chuckled softly and slid my hand up and under his shirt, letting my finger ghost their way over his chest a little as I watched him. "Straight huh? Not if he thinks Alex is sexy. And not if he gets time alone with a horny Alex." I smirked softly and leaned down to kiss his skin again, just running my lips over his skin softly. "And yeah, he has a thing for Beckett, among others. Me? Well...I think Pete's kinda hot, and they're supposed to be there when we are too. Although I've heard rumors My Chem might be around too..."
I winked at him before biting his stomach softly. "You aren't gaining weight Bren. I like your tummy, its perfect." My fingers pinched his nipple softly as my eyes sparkled up at him. "Your body is perfect Bren. No thinking about getting fat."
Then I pouted. "And you're going to go home and look at porn? Is porn really all that fun to look at that you wanna look at it? I'm not enough for you?"
My eyes sparkled when he mentioned My Chem. And I started drooling....all the guys were hot, especially Frank... Or, I could be drooling because his hand is up my shirt and basically fondling me. I sighed as I grasped his wrist, bringing it to my mouth and kissing it, “If you don’t stop, I’m gonna make a mess of myself...” I stated matter-of-factly.
“And, yes, for me porn is good, fuck it’s been the only sexual contact I’ve had since I was fifteen, so I’ve gotta accustomed to it, plus, you never want to hang out with me and make a reason for me to cancel my subscription...” I laughed, kissing his hand again, “But, I really do have to get going, what about this weekend? I am off at 8 on Friday...”
The guys filed out of the studio, waving to the owner as he locked up behind them, “Fuck, you too!” Spence covered his eyes, “Keep your hands to yourself, it’s like a free show out here or something...”
Laughing, I sat up and unlatched my legs from Ryan, pushing my shirt back down in the process, “Oh, you know you like it!” i winked before hopping off to give him a hug, and slap the rest of the guys hands. Holding my hand out to Alex, I shook his hand too, “Thanks for tonight, I think it was a success,” I smiled looking back to the band, “Well, this Mormon boy’s gotta get home for curfew, so think of me when you are eating the pizza...”
Pouting I watched Brendon say goodbye to the guys, and I closed my eyes to calm myself down in the process. I wanted, in that moment, to throw him against the car and take him, but I knew I couldn't. I felt breath on my ear and shivered when I heard a whisper. "Calm down Ry, or you're not gonna make it for pizza..."
I bit my bottom lip and slowly opened my eyes to see Alex there. I blushed softly and nudged him a little as he put his hands on my hips and turned me around, shoving me toward Brendon. "You two say goodnight, make it clean and G rated, and we'll meet you out front Ry. Okay?"
I nodded a little and watched the rest of the guys head out to the front before I looked at Brendon. "Don't ever think that I don't want to hang out with you Bren. That isn't the case. And isn't it a little soon to give you a reason to cancel your subscription? And why do you have a subscription? Does your mom know about that? How do you get around that?!" I shook my head and blushed a little. I pressed my lips to his and kissed him deeply. "Friday...definitely. Call me tomorrow?"
I laughed at him kinda ‘freaking out’. Shaking my head, “I know, I was just kidding with you, it’s my fault, um, most of the time, on why we can’t hang out, ok, so I’ll blame my parents...”
Kissing him back, “And you are cute, but not cute enough to cancel my subscription, I got it like two Christmases ago, my gram sent me this rechargeable credit card to buy clothes with, so I went to the day after Christmas sale and bought all this stuff half off, but kept the price tags on so my parents would think I spent all the money, and used the other money for a subscription to a porn site online. It worked out well actually, I can still charge it up, so when my three months are due, i just add some more money and I’m cool,” I laughed, “Wow, that’s pretty lame isn’t it? But, that my boyfriend,” i threw my arm around his shoulder, “Is how i got the way I am today!”
“And yeah, for Friday! I will most definitely call you tomorrow. I’ll call you sexy if you want!” I winked as I pulled him over to the driver’s side of the car, “Shit, I’m gonna be late! But I’ll call!” I kissed him again, sliding into the car, rolling down the window.
Shaking my head I listened to his explanation about the porn site. I'd never really gotten into that stuff oddly. I was more interested in checking guys out in the flesh. I did, after all, live in a college dorm most of the year and could just go down to the showers if I was desperate enough to see someone. But still, it was weird that my boyfriend was being open about going home to look at porn. I guess I just didn't understand it, but I knew I couldn't say anything since he really didn't say much about the me and Alex thing, and he probably felt the same as I felt about the porn thing.
I leaned in through the window to kiss him again. "Have a good night." I pulled back and winked at him before pulling away to watch him drive away. Once he was gone I went to meet up with the rest of the guys who were all waiting for me. "Sorry guys." I grinned and jumped on Alex's back. "So, are we walking to the pizza place or driving?"
They all agreed that we could walk and I let Alex carry me as we made our way up the street. I listened to the guys talk about the CD and Alex say that it was going well and should be done recording in the next week and then he'd only need a few hours to do a little work on it before it'd be ready for us to present to anyone we could in LA. I smiled as I listened to him talk and looked at the other guys. I went from being damn near friendless in college to suddenly having a boyfriend, my best friend back, and manager of a band of really cool guys. Life was looking up.
AUTHORS NOTE: The song used was by New Found Glory, it is not original, we make no claims on it at all.
Title: This is bullshit (16/?)
Authors:
howido_fics & youbratPairing: Brendon/Ryan
Rating: R
Summary: A night at the studio with Alex.
Disclaimer: *sigh*
Author’s Note: This is a co-write.
howido_fics is Brendon, youbrat is Ryan. Ryan's pov is in blue and Bren's is normal black. 1 | 2 | 3 | 4 | 5 | 6 | 8 | 9 | 10 | 11 | 12 | 13 | 14 | 15
Alex had called me about an hour ago to let me know that he was meeting Spencer and the guys at the studio, and he wanted me to come join them. I agreed to seeing as how it'd been a while since I'd even stepped foot into a studio and besides all of that, I wanted to see what Spence and the guys would come up with and how their stuff would sound. I spent some time getting ready and grabbing some drinks and food to bring with me because I knew that Alex wouldn't have thought to bring anything for himself.
I drove over to the studio, wondering if Brendon would be there or not. I hadn't seen him in a few days, not since his party on Saturday. I'd been busy with LA plans and shopping and stuff, and he'd been busy with school stuff and work. It was Wednesday, so that meant it had been over three days since I saw him. I missed him, but I couldn't expect to be with him every day, and besides, we had the phone for phone calls.
We'd had an amazing night Friday night under the stars, and that boy had an amazing skill with his fingers and his hands. He learned a little more about me that night, about my triggers and about what got me off, and I did my best to let him know every move that he made that I liked. I wanted to help him gain some confidence with me and the whole sexual situation, and I have to say, I wasn't let down in the slightest. Saturday had been a lot of fun, what I remember of the party at least. I was a bit tied up in Brendon with the occasional interruption of the other guys. Alex and Spence had hit it off and the group of them pretty much spent the night talking about their first studio session together. Alex had been all excited and desperate to get into the studio with them.
I pulled up to the studio and got out of my car. My understanding was they'd already had one session with Alex on Monday, so this was their second time with him in the studio, and they'd gotten things working well. It seemed, according to Alex, that they worked really well together. He was determined to have the CD done before we left for LA so that we could bring it with us in the hopes of giving it to someone like Pete Wentz or to get it to Adam. Alex liked the idea of trying to get their band into Fueled by Ramen or Decaydance, and I have to say I completely agreed with him, I thought they'd do well as an FBR band.
I groaned as I walked out of the Smoothie place to my car. It was hell tonight. For a Wednesday night, it sucked like no other. I just wanted to go home and talk to Ryan on the phone, or better yet, i should stop by. I missed seeing him, and it seemed the only time we did was on the weekend. Speaking of the weekend, Saturday went ok. It ended up raining so my parents stayed in with my cousins, but we had the basement to ourselves, and as childish as it may have been, I locked the door to keep them out. I was glad Alex came over. I began to realize that he was a cool guy and we could have fun together.
Getting into my car, I turned on my phone and waited for it to come on. I was planning on calling Ryan and seeing if I could come over, since it was my only time off this week thanks to some girl’s grandmother dying, and the studio session we had.
Shit. Speaking of studio sessions, I got a text from Spence that I was supposed to be there tonight. I groaned again. My whole body ached. Luckily though, I had a sub for art, so I got all my homework done then. I called my parents quickly to tell them I was going to the studio and that indeed, my homework was done. And decided that I would give Ryan a call on the way home, to keep me awake.
I put the Sugarcult on repeat in my car, when the song “Las Angeles” came on, I placed the song on repeat, singing it over and over to warm up my vocals. Hopefully I wouldn’t have to sing tonight, cause honestly I wasn’t in the mood. Parking in the back, I walked to the side door and pounded on it a few times since it was after hours, and I knew the front was closed. I stood there, tapping my feet as I waited for someone to answer.
Alex met me at the door, he was apparently waiting for me to show up with something for him to eat. I laughed and shook my head as he grabbed my hand and pretty much dragged me into the area of the studio where there was a couch set up. I smiled at the rest of the guys as he led me in. He plopped down on the couch and pulled me onto his lap.
"So Ry, what'd you bring me?" he wiggled his eyebrows, and I had to laugh. He put his hands on my legs as I opened up the bag that I brought, pulling out a bunch of bottles, some of water, some soda and some of juice, I also pulled out some sandwiches, some fruit, some chips, a package of Oreos and a few other things I managed to find in the kitchen.
"You guys want anything? Have at it." I grinned and leaned back against Alex as he grabbed a bottle of water and took a drink. He rested his chin on my shoulder as the guys scrambled for food and drinks. I smiled and glanced at him out of the corner of my eye. He waited until the guys got what they wanted before he grabbed something to eat too.
"So, do you think I qualify for band manager?" I grinned and winked over at Spencer.
I smiled as Steve opened the door, pulling me into a hug. “Hey man, ‘bout time we got here, we were just talking about your boy for being our manager!”
“What?” I asked as I followed him down the hall. Ryan, our manager?
“Yeah, he brought us food and stuff, and mentioned something about being our manager, and we were all like, cool, but you know, you get the final vote, cause you know, you are like his or something.”
I laughed, “Oh, I’m his or something...Wait?” I pulled him around, “You mean Ryan is here?” he nodded, and I shoved him out of the way, finding a new wave of energy as i ran down the hall and bust through the door.
I saw a few people jump as I waved to them sliding over to Ryan who was sitting on Alex, “Sorry, Alex, I’m gonna borrow him for a few minutes!” I grabbed Ryan’s wrist and pulled him up to meet me in a hungry kiss. I could hear the guys laughing and hollering at us, but I didn’t care. I continued to kiss him like it was the last day of the rest of my life.
Pulling back, I grinned, “Fuck, I needed that!” I smoothed down his hair that I managed to mess up, “And what is this I hear about you wanting to be our manager?”
I laughed when Brendon burst into the room and grabbed me out of Alex's lap and kissed me hard and hungry. I held onto him and kissed him back until he pulled away. All the guys were laughing and cat calling, and it was rather embarrassing, but at the same time...I had needed that too. I'd missed Brendon.
"I was only kinda joking...I mean, you guys got a producer." I glanced over my shoulder at Alex who looked a little disappointed we had stopped kissing. "You're gonna need a manager." I shrugged a little. "It was a thought...not that I actually know what I'd need to do, but I can learn that stuff."
I smiled and felt Alex's hands on my sides, using me to help pull himself up off the couch. "C'mon Brendon, you know you want your boyfriend as your manager, especially when we score you a record deal, and you guys start touring. You couldn't want to go on tour without him!"
I laughed and nudged Alex until he flopped back down on the couch, unfortunately I didn't gage it correctly cause he still had his hands holding onto my sides, and he ended up pulling me down with him. Laughing I collapsed against him and looked up at Brendon. "Apparently they're giving you the last word. So I guess its up to you."
I grinned up at him from Alex's lap as I reached over for the package of Oreos and opened it, grabbing one and nibbling on it as I waited, looking up at him through the hair over my eyes.
I smirked, pushing the hair of his face, and cupping his chin. Turning to look around at the guys, I got a lot of smiles and a few shrugs, “Well, considering we don’t really need a manager to actually do their duties until we actually have enough material to actually ‘tour’ with, I guess we could sign you up now, and at your internship, you can learn from other managers...” I leaned in and kissed him on the lips, then looked over his shoulder, “And you are right, I would need him on tour with me to keep me coming and going,” I winked.
“So,” I placed my hands on my hips, “I guess the answer is yes, if you would like to be our manager, you have the job!”
I smiled as Spencer came over and jumped on my back, “WE HAVE A MANAGER!!!!!! AND A PRODUCER AND A MERCH CHICK AND A GOOD LEAD SINGER AND A KICKASS GUITARIST AND A TALENTED KEYBOARDIST AND A ROCKIN’ BASSIST AND A SEXY PRODUCER!” he jumped off my back and cover his mouth.
“And an embarrassed drummer!” I laughed, patting him on the shoulder, “Spence, i never knew that about you,” I winked causing all the guys to laugh.
I laughed and looked over at Alex and raised my eyebrows. "So Spence thinks you're sexy, what do you think about that?"
Alex laughed and shrugged. "He doesn't know me, he'll decide otherwise once he does."
I shook my head and leaned back against Alex, feeling his arms slip around my waist as I watched Bren and the other guys in the band. They were happy, they were really happy. I sighed softly and rested my head against his, laying my hands over his on my stomach. The idea of being their manager, with Alex their producer, it all seemed like it would work if they got to the point of touring, which I hoped that they would. Although I never imagined everything would turn into what it had. I never imagined I'd end up being a manager for a band.
Alex watched with me as we watched the guys. He started playing with my fingers a little, and I glanced over at him. He leaned in and whispered into my ear. "Is it significant that Spencer thinks I'm sexy? I mean...is this a big deal?"
I smiled a little and shrugged. To be honest, I didn't know if it was a big deal or not.
I followed the guys into the booth that had their equipment set up. Grabbing a towel, I twisted it and snapped it at Spencer’s butt. “What was that all about?” I asked as he sat behind his set.
“What?” he questioned innocently.
I shook my head, spinning him around in my chair, “Come on Spence, you know what I am talking about, Alex...being cute? Or wait, was it sexy?”
He shrugged, “He is, I guess, i mean, if I were gay, I would think he is cute...”
“If you were gay...right...” I raised a brow before turning him around on the stool and moving to grab a mic.
“Let’s warm up with a oldie, whadaya say?” I walked around whispering my request in their ears as the tuned their instruments. Spencer started on the drums, then the guitar picked in with some keys added. Once the bass played, I started tapping my feet, “I’m only pretty sure, that I can’t take anymore, before you take a swing, i wonder, what are we fighting for...”
Alex rubbed my stomach through my shirt, causing me to turn my head and look up at him. He smiled softly and kissed my temple. "Have I told you lately that you're my best friend, and I'd die without you in my life?"
I raised my eyebrows a little, wondering what was going on that was causing all this sentiment as well as the very snugly nature I'd walked in to find him in. I smiled and shook my head. "No. But I know it anyway because I feel the same."
He pulled me in closer against him, just holding me tightly as we listened to the guys warming up in the booth. "Think they'd let their producer go on tour with them too? I mean, I could be your assistant or something. God, I'd do anything if I'd get to go with you guys."
I smiled and turned in his lap, facing him while his arms were still around my waist. "I'm sure we could work something out when the time comes 'lex. But what's going on? What's gotten into you tonight?"
I watched him shrug a little before he looked up at me. There was something almost haunted in his eyes and it worried me. "I just...I have this feeling..." He shook his head. "I just feel like I'm going to lose you or something Ry."
I slid my hands up to his cheeks and looked into his eyes. "You aren't going to lose me Alex, okay? I'm not going anywhere. You're stuck with me for three months in LA, remember? You're stuck with me like I'm stuck with you. You're just lucky that I love you so much that I'm glad to be stuck with you." I grinned down at him and pressed my lips to his in a quick kiss. "Rylex, remember? I'm not going anywhere."
He grinned a little and nodded, holding me tightly against himself like a teddy bear as we waited for the guys to finish warming up.
We continued practicing a few more songs then James wanted to go take a smoke break so I stayed in the booth with Spence. I wanted to go hangout with Ryan, but Spencer motioned for me to come over to him, so I did. “What’s up?” I asked.
“How can you deal with that?”
I gave him a weird look, “Um, with what?” I sat cross-legged behind his set and leaned against the wall.
He leaned in, “With Alex and Ryan being like that all the time, shouldn’t you be the one holding him like that?”
I shrugged, “Dude, their friends, they’ve been through a lot together...” What’s the big deal?
Laughing, “Right, just friends, if I was dating a girl and her,” he lifted his fingers to do quotes, “’best guy friend’ was all over her, I’d be out in no time...come on Bren, you are smarter than that...”
I crossed my arms over my chest, “Smarter than what? They are friends, Spence, and they have been through a lot...”
“Yeah,” he interrupted, “You already said that, have they ever dated?”
“No, just casual sex,” his mouth dropped, “What? It was when they both wanted it. They didn’t date, they just did it when they were lonely or needed a friend...”
Spencer shook his head, “Did you just listen to a word you said? Come on, Bren...what if Ryan gets lonely in LA? You’d be tore up, and this coming from the most jealous guy I have ever met...”
I jumped to my feet, “Well, what do you want me to do? Break up with him?” I tried to storm past him but he stopped me.
Gripping my shoulders, “Brendon, I’m just worried that you will get hurt, and I don’t want that, I know you aren’t stupid, and I know you know what you are doing with him, but I just want you to be careful, and tell him if it’s bothering you, and if he sticks with you, you know it is real, but if he takes Alex’s side, then maybe it isn’t.”
“Spencer, you don’t know what the hell you are talking about, ok. I trust Ryan!”
“Oh what? You’ve known him a whole month?”
I narrowed my eyes at him, “Oh, and full month is enough time for you to ask him to be our manager?”
“That’s a complete different thing, and don’t change the subject!” I tried to walk away again, but he pulled me back, “Just, Bren, look me in the eyes, and tell me you aren’t jealous, or it doesn’t hurt you, and I will drop the whole thing.”
I looked him straight in the eye and didn’t know what to say. Personally, I wanted to run. I opened my mouth as James came busting back in the room, “Come on! Breaks over, we’ve got fifteen minutes left, let’s get a few songs in.”
God I wanted to kiss him! Spence looked at me and sighed, “This isn’t over...” he whispered as he sat back on his stool, and I grabbed the mic again.
I looked up when James left the booth and raised my eyebrows when no one else left. I waited, wondering if they were done or what was going on when James came back. Laughing I got out of Alex's lap. "I think you're up for being all producery."
Alex chuckled and shook his head as he stood up and led me over to the control board. He plopped down on the chair and tugged me down to rest on his leg while he prepared to record. He played around with a few things before he pressed a button and initiated the intercom. "Are you guys ready to record something?"
I smiled and waved at Brendon before leaning in to speak into the intercom as well. "I wanna hear you sing for me Bren." I winked at him through the glass and took a drink of Alex's bottle of water but frowned when I saw Spencer's face. I felt like something was off and wrong, just looking into his face, and I didn't know what it was, but something just told me that.
I frowned and looked over at Alex, murmuring so the intercom wouldn't pick it up. "Spence doesn't look happy..." I bit my lip, feeling unsure. He slid his arm around my hips and pulled me closer, whispering his own response. "I'm sure its nothing Ry."
I nodded a little and looked back, smiling at Brendon but still feeling a little apprehensive about the look on Spencer's face.
I stepped up to the mic, glancing back at Spencer who was giving the guys on the other side of the glass an evil glare. “Spence,” I clapped, “In the game,” passing him a knowing glance that was a mixture of knock it off and shut the hell up.
Sighing, I bit my lip, waiting for the band to start playing a song. It was something small Spence and I wrote once when we were bored. Kinda of a slow song, but it does show off my vocals, so I like it.
Once it kicked in, I started singing, “Da-da-dada-da-da”
Dancing around the booth, I couldn’t stand still, I really wanted to get out of there. Every time I looked at Spencer, he shot me these rude looks, and it was killing me, “You had my heart in your ha-ands, you had my heart so don’t, don’t let it go, don’t let it go...”
I knew our conversation would pick back up where it left off, but I kept singing, hoping I wasn’t fucking up the words as I did so. Steve sang back ups as we all sang the bridge, and they stopped playing clapping along with the drums and acoustic guitar.
“OH! You had my heart in your hand, you had my heart so don’t let it go! DON’T LET IT GOOOO,” i smiled at Ryan, “Don’t let it go! Check my pressure, patch me right up, you’re too good to be!” Clapping again, “Da-dad-dada-da-da....” I whispered, “You’re too good to be....”
Once we finished we all got up and cheered. That was the first time we played that song all the way through, and honestly, it sounded great!
I got up from Alex's lap after the song was done and went back to the couch. I could still hear them and see them from there, but the difference was I couldn't see Spencer. I picked up the package of Oreos and ate one immediately. Oreos were one of my comfort foods. I loved them and they made me feel better.
Alex did a few things at the board, what I only assume was finishing the recording of that song. Once he was done doing whatever he was doing he got up and came over, grabbing an Oreo for himself. "Are you okay Ry?"
I bit my lip and nodded a little, not looking up at him. He ran his free hand through my hair and sat down next to me. "You're thinking that Spencer is mad because of something to do with you. Aren't you Ry?"
I shrugged a little, and he sighed. "Maybe I shouldn't have come."
He shook his head and put the Oreos to the side, pulling me into a hug. "No, Ry, its good that you did. If they have a problem with you or me then they need to just tell us. They said they wanted you as their manager. Even Spencer said he did. So whatever has him pissed off...well, it can't be that important. Okay?"
I nodded against him and closed his eyes. "Why does our friendship always raise so many eyebrows and cause so many problems 'Lex?"
He shrugged a little. "Because our friendship is and always will be controversial. Because our friendship is not normally and commonly accepted by the general populace of the nation or the world. Because our friendship is something they don't understand and they always fear or are speculative about things they do not understand. Because other people look at our friendship and automatically assume we are dating or having sex or about to have sex. Because this world is closed minded and intolerant and they can't just handle two best friends who are entirely and utterly open with each other and comfortable with who they are together."
I smiled softly and hugged him tightly. "When did you get so smart 'Lex?" I looked up at him with a real smile.
He chuckled and shrugged. "Maybe the smarts came in when the ink went into my skin."
I raised my eyebrows. "You got a tattoo and didn't tell me!? You asshole!" I shoved him and then laughed as he wiggled his eyebrows.
"I'll show you it later Ry. I think we should get back to work right now." I nodded in response as he got up and went back to the board. "You guys wanna do one more before we call it a night?"
“Spencer, please,” I walked over to him, “Cut it out, ok. It’s not your problem, and it isn’t even a problem, I am falling for him, and I trust him, so chill, please, I’m cool with it. Why can’t you be?”
He sighed, looking up, “I just don’t want to see you get hurt is all.”
Smiling, I placed my hand on his shoulder as I squatted down to be eye level with him, “Spence, I’m gonna get hurt eventually, and this is something that I can deal with and have dealt with, yes, I have cried over it, but that’s just it, I am over it, so please, you be too? For me?” I pouted, “They’re our producer and manager, and it’ll work out, I promise. So no worries ok? They have just a tight relationship...”
“What,” Kyle asked, “Cause they have their hands all over each other all the time?”
“FUCK! Not you too,” I looked between the two of them, “You guys can make a big high school deal over it, but I’m not. So get the fuck over it, if it bothers you, let ‘em know. But when Ry and I are together, I know who he’s really boyfriends with...and that’s all that matters...so drop it and let’s do another song.”
Kyle shrugged as he went back to his mic stand and fiddle with the guitar until Spence started the beat.
I chuckled at Alex and got back up, going over to the window and quirked my eyebrow at Brendon, beckoning him toward the window. I looked over at Alex. "Thank you, for being sane when I'm not."
He laughed and shook his head. "Its cause I love you Ryry. If I didn't, I'd go just as crazy as you."
I shook my head. "Isn't it supposed to be something like, we're best friends so we go crazy together? Or is it supposed to be that you stay sane when I go crazy and vice versa?" I furrowed my eyebrows in thought and laughed when he just shrugged.
I turned back to the window to see Brendon there and grinned. I leaned forward and kissed the glass right in front of him. I'd have kissed him if there hadn't been glass between us anyway.
I smiled at Ryan as he kissed the glass. It was a cute gesture, but I’d be damned if I touched that nasty glass, we weren’t in the best part of town, so I don’t know what kind of hoes have been on that thing, plus, even if the people did clean it, the taste of Windex doesn’t sound good in the evening. So I placed me hand over the spot and winked at him so I could continue singing.
Knowing he was watching, I danced around and shook my ass, fooling with the bassist as we snag back and forth. Steve was gay too, and we always had fun goofing off. At a party once, we pissed everyone off cause we spent the whole night doing the scenes from Dumb and Dumber, like, “Mock,” “Yeah,” it was fun!
Trying not to laugh, cause we might mess up the vocals, I smiled at him and rocked back and forth with his bass. Shaking my head before almost tripping over James as he played the keys. Oops. See what happens when I like to have fun?
Once the song was finished, we immediately started packing up the stuff, since we all has school in the morning, and it was getting late.
Alex did a few things on the board while the guys were playing the song and I smiled, laughing at Brendon and shaking my head. I stepped away from the glass and Alex reached out for me, tugging me over to him and into his lap again. He leaned up and whispered into my ear. "You're gonna fall in love with that kid, aren't you?"
I blushed a little and shrugged some, tearing my eyes away from Brendon to look down at Alex again. "I dunno. I guess its possible. He's a lot of fun 'lex. I love being with him. In love though? I dunno...the closest I've ever come to 'being in love' is us...I dunno what it feels like, but maybe."
Grinning I looked back through the window at the guys. My guys since I was now the manager of them. I told myself I was going to have to try and find out all the details of a manager's job while I was in LA so that I could be the best manager they could ever want.
I felt Alex tugging me in a little tighter to him and I leaned back against him, keeping my eyes on Brendon though. "You're gonna fall in love with him and forget all about lil 'ol me."
I turned back to catch the biggest pout on his lips. "No pouting Alex. You know I could never forget about you!"
"You better not!" He smiled and turned back to end the recording once they were done playing. "Sounds like they're done. Are you two going out after or are you heading home?"
Tilting my head to the side I rested it against Alex's. "I dunno. I haven't talked to him about it yet. I will though when we're all done. And I'll let you know. If we're not, you wanna do something?"
"Why do you think I was asking?"
Once we got everything packed up, I walked out, carrying my mic. And, well, that’s about it...
Walking out of the studio, I smiled at Ryan and Alex making my way over to him and licking Ryan’s cheek. “Hey stud muffin, what you doin’ tonight?” I giggled as I pocketed the mic, pulling him out of Alex’s grasp and kissing him, “I’m so happy to see you here. I had the worst day ever and as soon as Steve told me you were in the studio, I automatically cheered up!”
I kissed him again, this time wrapping my arms around him, bringing him closer to me. Pulling back, “I enjoy kissing you way too much, you know that? It’s like an addiction I can’t shake!” I smiled as I pecked him lightly on the mouth.
“GET A ROOM!” James laughed as he made his way out of the studio, “And, as our manager, you sure the hell better not play favorites! We all get to sleep in your bed when we go on tour, not just Bubble Butt over here,” he laughed, and I grasped my ass.
“I do not have a bubble butt! It’s just pleasantly plump and sexy as ever in my tight dress slacks!” I laughed.
I practically wrapped myself around Brendon when he pulled me into him. I was perfectly happy to kiss him for as long as he wanted me to. Unfortunately for the two of us and our lips the rest of the guys just had to make a scene and break us apart. I pouted a little and sighed but then raised my eyebrows at James.
"Wait, why are you all getting to sleep in my bed? Maybe no one but me is sleeping in my bed when we're on tour, did you think about that?" I gave James a weird look while Alex was laughing. "Shut up asshole!"
Alex smirked and got up. "But Ry, you know you won't be the only one in your bed so why are you even trying to say that?"
I shook my head and leaned in to whisper into Brendon's ear. "Your ass is cute enough, now are you going to let them all demand to sleep in my bed?"
I pouted a little at Brendon as Alex moved behind me and wrapped his arms around us, making a Ryan sandwich. I couldn't have been happier than being there in both their arms, my two favorite boys in the world.
I laughed at all of them specially Ryan for getting worried, “It’s ok, you can sleep like this...” I smirked as I wrapped my arms around Alex too, “And you can drink like this and eat like this, and bungee jump likes this, as long as I get to be on your back side a few times,” I winked, “They then we’ll be good!”
Wiggling out of their grasp, I walked back in to help Spencer get his drum set picked up, “Look,” I held his shoulders, “I can tell when I kiss him that he’s cool and trustworthy. And will you, for the sake of me, just believe that?” he nodded, “But, if anything were ever to happen,” I held out my pinkie like we just to do as kids, and he linked his as mine, “I give you every right to tell me ‘I told you so!’ as you are comforting me,” I smiled pulling him into a hug.
“I love you Bren.”
“I love you too Spencer-roo!” laughing at our old nickname, “Need some help?” He nodded, so I grabbed the bass drum and headed out to his suv. Must be nice to be a spoiled brat...haha...but even nicer to have them as your friend.
After making a few trips to get everything in his vehicle, I pulled Ryan into me, “I have to be home in like twenty minutes, wanna walk me to my car?” I asked, winking.
I leaned back against Alex when Brendon pulled away and looked at the other guys. "Yeah, so, um...no, you guys won't be in my bed on tour. Bren might, if you let Alex come, maybe, but you guys...that'd be a bit full for a bed. And on top of that, I'm not sure I want to be sharing my bed with you guys!"
I grinned to be sure my words weren't harsh and looked up at Alex before I pulled away to gather up the food and stuff. I watched Bren lug Spencer's stuff out to his car and waited for him to come back. I laughed when he tugged me to him and snuggled against him a little. "I hate your stupid curfew you know Bren? I wish you could stay out later with us. I'm thinking I wanna go get some food and stuff."
Pouting at Brendon I heard Alex whoop at the mention of food. "Pizza! We gotta go get pizza! Who else is in?!"
I laughed and shook my head before murmuring. "I'll walk you to your car of course. I just wish you could come get food with us."
I heard Kyle and James say they would go as I laced my hands with Ryan, walking to my car, “You hate my curfew? Imagine living it...” I laughed as we made it outside.
“Tonight was pretty successful? Don’t you think?” I asked him as I sat on the hood of my car, pulling him between my legs. Leaning forward, I kissed him as I slid my hands in his back pockets, squeezing softly while running my tongue along his upper lip.
We continued kissing for a few moments when I broke apart. Licking my lips, I tasted him on me, “Mmm, Oreos,” I laughed before taking his hand and placing both of mine around his. Chills ran up and down my spine as I looked in his eyes. I knew it was there. It was right there at that moment that I knew I could trust him. And that everything was going to be all right. And that he felt the same.
Wrapping my legs around him to pull him closer, “I wish I could go with you guys too, and I wish I could spend the night in you bed, in your arms...”
I sighed softly and slid my arms up and around Brendon's neck. "It did go well tonight. Except for the times when I thought I was going to die from the looks of death Spencer was giving off..."
I trailed off and played with the hair at the base of his skull. "That was because of me and Alex, isn't it? Spence's looks of death. It was because I was being far too affectionate with Alex and vice versa. Right?"
I bit my lip for a moment and then shrugged a little. "I wish you could come too Bren. There's no way you could call your parents and get them to give you another hour to grab some food with all of us and then go straight home? I know I won't get lucky enough to have you in bed with me tonight, or any other night before I leave for LA. But having you go for food with us would be great...especially since it was after a studio session and all. They won't give even a little bit?"
I knew I shouldn't even have been asking, but I wanted him there. If for no other reason, I wanted him there so Spence didn't try to kill me with death glares. If Bren was there I could at least hide behind him because he wouldn't direct them at Bren. Although, I could hide behind Alex, Spence thought he was hot, so maybe he wouldn't glare at him like that, but at the same time if he's mad at me for being close to Alex, maybe he'd changed his mind on Alex too. I pouted a little. I hated the situation where I had to say goodnight to him too early in my opinion.
“Spence is just being overprotective,” I dropped his hand to place them on his hips so he would look directly at me, “And yes, it’s because of you and Alex’s physical relationship, but he knows I am fine with it, and he promised he would be too as long as he know I am not hurting or anything over it, and I’m not, so don’t worry about him, he’s all bark and no bite,” I moved him closer to me, whispering in his ear after licking and breathing lightly on it, “I think he’s jealous too...”
I laughed, “Either way,” I sat back on the hood, “I wish I could, I mean, my parents might give in, but I’m really tired myself, from school to the studio to work, I need sleep. I miss it, now only,” I tapped my mouth, “If I could get this sexy person out of my mind so I could sleep at night and not spend hours daydreaming and wanting,” I winked, “And needing to touch myself, life would be a whole lot easier...”
Kissing him again, I smiled into it as I ran my hands up and down his sides, tickling his rib cage.
I laughed and kissed him back, pressing him back against the hood of his car and leaning on top of him. I kissed him deeply and passionately before pulling back to whisper. "Jealous of me? Or jealous of you? Or jealous of Alex? Is it because of the 'sexy producer' comment he let slip earlier? You think he's jealous that Alex's hands are all over me and just me?"
I smirked softly down at him before leaning in to kiss him again. Sighing softly I pulled back and licked my lips. "Mmm, you taste good." I grinned and winked at him. "I'm sorry you're so...well, distracted lately. Is there anything I can do to help that distraction? I'm guessing not tonight though. Sadly."
Reaching up I brushed my fingers across his cheek before leaning back against the hood of the car over him. "You know, its pretty hot seeing you sprawled out on the hood of your car. Makes me want to strip you naked and have you right here right now. Public display and all. Just imagine if all the guys poured out of the building while we were." I winked and leaned in to kiss him again.
Good, maybe I could make him believe that Spence is jealous if Alex, cause he likes him or something, instead of him just defending me...
“No, Spence told me if he were gay, he’d think Alex was cute, so, you know, he prolly wants a little of that action too, hell if he got some, it might help transfer him to the dark side...” I wiggled my brows.
Watching him tower over me, I smiled, “You could always come over to my place for a while and, you know, watch a movie or something...I’m sure my parents won’t mind...but you’ve got pizza and stuff to do, don’t wanna spend anytime with poor old me,” I fake pouted and whined, barely able to hold back a laugh.
Wrapping my feet tighter around him, I yanked him into me more, “And here I thought I was a cock tease, you know how uncomfortable it is gonna be for me to drive home with a hard-on now? That is,” I winked, “If you wanted to fix it...” I took his hand and placed it over my crotch, “Just your words and simple kisses do that to me.” I whispered before kissing him roughly.
"Brendon, you're absolutely amazing." I grinned down at him and rubbed him softly through his pants. "I could take you here if you wanted me to. You and me. Under the stars, on the hood of your car..." Looking into his eyes I licked my lips. Moving my hand up I tugged the bottom of his shirt up before leaning down and kissing, nibbling and sucking across his stomach. I kept my eyes on his before pausing.
"Alex hasn't said anything about Spence to indicate interest. However, if we're going to be spending a lot of time together he just might...unless he falls in love with someone in LA, which I wouldn't put past him. He has a thing for William Beckett." I grinned, just leaving myself down between his legs and looking up at him from his stomach. I wanted to go to his house with him and watch a movie, but I also wanted to grab some food, I was hungry and those Oreos hadn't done what I wanted them to do.
"What if we go grab pizza and then I can come back to your house? I'm really hungry, and pizza sounds so good right now. So, I can go get a late dinner with the guys and then come over. Unless you're going to be asleep?"
I groaned as he played with my tummy. I think he’s found a soft spot.
“No, no, Spence is straight as a nail, at least last time I saw him making out with a girl he was, but that could change, and Beckett huh? He’s too tall and feminine for me. What is your type, I mean, who are you gonna drool over and wish you didn’t have a boyfriend when you see them in LA?”
I smirked, I knew if he went and got pizza that it would be too late, plus, I’m sure I was coming close to my curfew as we spoke, “No, you go get pizza and hang with the guys and let the Mormon kid head home and jerk off to some porn, it would work if you came over now, but not once the pizza thing happened. And I couldn’t stand to eat,” I poked my stomach, “I’m gaining weight...”
I chuckled softly and slid my hand up and under his shirt, letting my finger ghost their way over his chest a little as I watched him. "Straight huh? Not if he thinks Alex is sexy. And not if he gets time alone with a horny Alex." I smirked softly and leaned down to kiss his skin again, just running my lips over his skin softly. "And yeah, he has a thing for Beckett, among others. Me? Well...I think Pete's kinda hot, and they're supposed to be there when we are too. Although I've heard rumors My Chem might be around too..."
I winked at him before biting his stomach softly. "You aren't gaining weight Bren. I like your tummy, its perfect." My fingers pinched his nipple softly as my eyes sparkled up at him. "Your body is perfect Bren. No thinking about getting fat."
Then I pouted. "And you're going to go home and look at porn? Is porn really all that fun to look at that you wanna look at it? I'm not enough for you?"
My eyes sparkled when he mentioned My Chem. And I started drooling....all the guys were hot, especially Frank... Or, I could be drooling because his hand is up my shirt and basically fondling me. I sighed as I grasped his wrist, bringing it to my mouth and kissing it, “If you don’t stop, I’m gonna make a mess of myself...” I stated matter-of-factly.
“And, yes, for me porn is good, fuck it’s been the only sexual contact I’ve had since I was fifteen, so I’ve gotta accustomed to it, plus, you never want to hang out with me and make a reason for me to cancel my subscription...” I laughed, kissing his hand again, “But, I really do have to get going, what about this weekend? I am off at 8 on Friday...”
The guys filed out of the studio, waving to the owner as he locked up behind them, “Fuck, you too!” Spence covered his eyes, “Keep your hands to yourself, it’s like a free show out here or something...”
Laughing, I sat up and unlatched my legs from Ryan, pushing my shirt back down in the process, “Oh, you know you like it!” i winked before hopping off to give him a hug, and slap the rest of the guys hands. Holding my hand out to Alex, I shook his hand too, “Thanks for tonight, I think it was a success,” I smiled looking back to the band, “Well, this Mormon boy’s gotta get home for curfew, so think of me when you are eating the pizza...”
Pouting I watched Brendon say goodbye to the guys, and I closed my eyes to calm myself down in the process. I wanted, in that moment, to throw him against the car and take him, but I knew I couldn't. I felt breath on my ear and shivered when I heard a whisper. "Calm down Ry, or you're not gonna make it for pizza..."
I bit my bottom lip and slowly opened my eyes to see Alex there. I blushed softly and nudged him a little as he put his hands on my hips and turned me around, shoving me toward Brendon. "You two say goodnight, make it clean and G rated, and we'll meet you out front Ry. Okay?"
I nodded a little and watched the rest of the guys head out to the front before I looked at Brendon. "Don't ever think that I don't want to hang out with you Bren. That isn't the case. And isn't it a little soon to give you a reason to cancel your subscription? And why do you have a subscription? Does your mom know about that? How do you get around that?!" I shook my head and blushed a little. I pressed my lips to his and kissed him deeply. "Friday...definitely. Call me tomorrow?"
I laughed at him kinda ‘freaking out’. Shaking my head, “I know, I was just kidding with you, it’s my fault, um, most of the time, on why we can’t hang out, ok, so I’ll blame my parents...”
Kissing him back, “And you are cute, but not cute enough to cancel my subscription, I got it like two Christmases ago, my gram sent me this rechargeable credit card to buy clothes with, so I went to the day after Christmas sale and bought all this stuff half off, but kept the price tags on so my parents would think I spent all the money, and used the other money for a subscription to a porn site online. It worked out well actually, I can still charge it up, so when my three months are due, i just add some more money and I’m cool,” I laughed, “Wow, that’s pretty lame isn’t it? But, that my boyfriend,” i threw my arm around his shoulder, “Is how i got the way I am today!”
“And yeah, for Friday! I will most definitely call you tomorrow. I’ll call you sexy if you want!” I winked as I pulled him over to the driver’s side of the car, “Shit, I’m gonna be late! But I’ll call!” I kissed him again, sliding into the car, rolling down the window.
Shaking my head I listened to his explanation about the porn site. I'd never really gotten into that stuff oddly. I was more interested in checking guys out in the flesh. I did, after all, live in a college dorm most of the year and could just go down to the showers if I was desperate enough to see someone. But still, it was weird that my boyfriend was being open about going home to look at porn. I guess I just didn't understand it, but I knew I couldn't say anything since he really didn't say much about the me and Alex thing, and he probably felt the same as I felt about the porn thing.
I leaned in through the window to kiss him again. "Have a good night." I pulled back and winked at him before pulling away to watch him drive away. Once he was gone I went to meet up with the rest of the guys who were all waiting for me. "Sorry guys." I grinned and jumped on Alex's back. "So, are we walking to the pizza place or driving?"
They all agreed that we could walk and I let Alex carry me as we made our way up the street. I listened to the guys talk about the CD and Alex say that it was going well and should be done recording in the next week and then he'd only need a few hours to do a little work on it before it'd be ready for us to present to anyone we could in LA. I smiled as I listened to him talk and looked at the other guys. I went from being damn near friendless in college to suddenly having a boyfriend, my best friend back, and manager of a band of really cool guys. Life was looking up.
AUTHORS NOTE: The song used was by New Found Glory, it is not original, we make no claims on it at all.
