This is Bullshit (28/?)
Title: This is Bullshit (28/?)
Authors: howido_fics & youbrat
Pairing: Ryden
Rating: R
Summary:
Disclaimer: *sigh*
Author’s Note: This is a co-write. howido_fics is Brendon, youbrat is Ryan. Ryan's pov is blue and Bren's is black.

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I stopped outside Paul's door and turned to Brendon with a smile. I pulled him in and kissed him softly before grinning and taking his hand, opening the door and walking into the party. Alex was sitting in Jason's lap. Paul was at the bar mixing drinks. Jacob and Kevin were fiddling with the stereo. Sarah was curled up on the couch with a drink in her hand as she watched Damien and Rick organizing snacks on the table. Sarah's roommate Jessica had decided to join the party and was sitting beside her on the couch, talking, although being ignored. Tyler and Peter, two other guys from the floor beneath us, were sitting on the other couch arguing over something.

I grinned at the guys and Alex looked up. "Ryan! It’s about damn time the two of you showed up. No fucking when there's a party!" He stood up and made his way over to us. I laughed and shook my head as he wrapped his arms around me and gave me a messy kiss.

Shoving Alex off me a little, I laughed at him. "Okay, Lex, how much have you had to drink already? Cuz I think you're already trashed!" I gave Brendon an apologetic look before looking over at Paul. "I told you not to let him sample every single bottle you've got back there!" I helped Alex over to one of the chairs before looking at those Brendon hadn't met. "Bren, you've met almost everyone. You know Paul, Jason, Jacob, Kevin, Damien, Rick and Sarah. The girl next to Sarah is her roommate Jessica. And those two guys arguing over there are Tyler and Peter. They live downstairs."

Paul chuckled and brought us each a glass. "Raspberry rum and coke for you Ryan. And because I wasn't sure what you liked Brendon, you've got a regular rum and coke." He shrugged a little. "Some of the others may show up later."

I took the drink and smiled, I wasn't planning on getting drunk or wasted tonight, since I had a flight to take and parents to answer too, but a little drink won't hurt me at all. Plus, it might take the edge off a little in a room full of strangers.

"Thanks Paul, this is perfect," I smiled before doing the same to Ryan, then taking his hand and squeezing it.

Looking over at Alex, I couldn't help but laugh; seriously, we weren't gone long enough for him to get that wasted. Made me wonder if he was exaggerating it a little to get into Jason's lap, if so, I needed to give him a high five later, cause Jason was cute...

I made my way over to an open spot and sat down, sipping my drink, I glanced around the room to took in all the people. They seemed really nice, and I felt comfortable enough around them to not have to follow Ryan around like a lost puppy. I would either get in the conversations, or sit and listen and nod. And both were fine with me.

I grinned at Brendon before sipping my drink. "Thanks Paul, you're amazingly perfect because you know 'my drink.'" I chuckled and walked over to Alex, leaning down to whisper into his ear. "You shouldn't be all up in Jason's shit, Lex. You're the one that told me about him and Paul. Did you intend to be up in Jacob's shit? If so, you're gonna need to get him away from Kevin. And seriously...how'd you get this drunk?"

Alex grinned up at me and shrugged. "I'm open to any and all. The more the merrier." I laughed and shook my head.

"I'm not looking over you tonight. So don't go too crazy, okay?"

He nodded, and I stood up before going over to grab a cookie from the snack table. I looked over at Brendon and motioned to the table with raised eyebrows, asking if he wanted me to grab anything for him.

Shrugging at Ryan, I wasn't really hungry, plus, if my plan was to get lightly buzzed, I knew food wouldn't help the process. And, on that note, the less I ate then, the more I could later when I had the cravings for food. Or fast food. Why was it I only wanted it when I was drunk?

Watching Ryan as he munched on his cookie, I couldn't help but smile. He looked so cute. And sexier than hell. I wasn't sure what it was that made him look hotter than he normally did, but I would love to find out. I would like to think it was just a glow he had from having some amazing-ass no pun intended sex from his boyfriend, but really now, there was only one way to find out.

I got up and walked up next to him, reaching for a cookie, but making sure I was leaning across him in the process. I took in a deep breath and inhaled his scent as I was pulling back. Once I got within the proper distance, I made sure to noticeably sniff his neck too, "You smell so good," I looked back at him and winked, "And look even better..."

I raised my eyebrows at Brendon and slid my arm around his waist. "Oh really? Are you just saying that? Or am I really smelling good? Because I really don't remember putting on any cologne." I chuckled faster and winked at him before leaning in and kissing him softly.

The music changed behind us and grinning, I took Brendon's hand and led him over to start dancing. Sarah and Damien were already dancing and a couple of the other guys looked like they wanted to be, but were lacking in the 'having a girl to dance with' area. I slid my arm around his waist and pulled his body against mine as I started to move to the music.

"So...you've never danced with me Bren." I grinned and leaned in to kiss him softly. "But there’s always a good time for firsts." I chuckled quietly and took a sip from my glass as I continued to move with his body and against his body. I leaned in and kissed him softly and gently before leaning in and whispering into his ear. "I love you Brendon Urie." I nipped his ear softly as I stayed pressed close against him.

"Hey, Ry, I thought I said no fucking when there's a party!" Shaking my head, I gave Alex the finger.

Laughing at Alex, I rolled my eyes and looked back at Ryan, "I wasn't kidding. You do smell exceptionally well, cologne or not, you are damn sexy!" I pecked his lips before leaning into him and smiling, just resting my head on his shoulder, letting the music take control.

"And," I whispered, "You do look really hot too, but hell, I've told you this before, and it is always the truth, but you look fucking amazing in everything you wear," I kissed his neck and mumbled against it, "Or don't wear..."

Running my hands down his back, I held my drink in my right hand as I brought my left to the small of his back and placed it there. Pulling him closer to me, I began to hum the song we were dancing to. I couldn't take the damn smile off of my face. He was contagious and addicting and all that bad stuff that made me feel so damn good. I rubbed my nose against him and sniffed again. Yep. Perfection.

"Mmm...careful Bren, or you're going to cause us to have major problems actually staying here for this party." I chuckled and snuggled in against him a little before kissing his neck and sighing. "Do you really have to go home tomorrow Bren? I mean...there’s no way I get to have you here longer? I know its only like five nights without you, but I'd rather you were here for those five nights, and we could fly home together for next weekend. That would be perfectly amazing."

I sighed softly, knowing it was wishful thinking, but it was just one of those things; you have your boyfriend here, and you don't want to say goodbye, it’s like being addicted, and knowing that the following nights of not having him there are going to be torture. It was really discouraging, but the fact that I'd see him the following weekend kinda made up for it. Just not enough for me to happily put him on a plane and send him home the next day.

"I love Alex for helping you get here and plan it and all. I just wish it could have been a longer stay and all. This 'weekends' thing isn't all its cut out to be when you actually have to say goodbye, or see you later and put you on that plane. It makes me want to pout." And pout I did, puppy dog eyes and pouty lip and all.

I sighed as I listened to him. Cause again, he was right. I snuggled into him closer as I brought my drink up to take a sip, "I know Ry, it's not fair, but it's life, I mean, a little time is better than no time at all," I smiled at him, "And you know as much as I would love to do that I have to earn money for college next fall and stuff, or believe me, I would move in with my aunt and uncle in a heartbeat..." I thought about it, "Actually, that wouldn't be a bad idea, I'm sure there are smoothie places in this mall here, and my uncle is a lawyer, I could check out that family business..."

Laughing at my statement, I shook my head and raised my eyebrows, "Only one could dream..."

I kissed him and placed my head back down on his shoulder as the song was coming to an end. I didn't want it to end, I would be completely content standing here with him all night whether the song was fast or slow or it was country music, I could do it. Hell, we could become a coat rack or a pole for all I cared, as long as we were in each other's arms, I was game.

I nodded again and reached up to play with his hair softly before leaning back some to look into his eyes. "If I get to come back here next summer, maybe you should look into coming out as well. You could live at your aunt and uncles and work somewhere out here and check out the lawfirm if your dad required that of you." I shrugged again. "Only thing is, I won't know for sure if I'll get to come back for this or not. Not until a few weeks or a month before. That might be too short of notice though."

The song ended, and I pulled away looking up into Brendon's eyes. I shrugged a little. "Maybe I won't be coming back here at all, maybe I'll go to New York or something instead. I just dunno where they're even going to be looking for interns. But I'd love to come back here and work more. Work with the bands and all. Course, if I get in good with Pete, maybe I could do an internship at Fueled by Ramen and Decaydance or something."

I shook my head and leaned in to kiss him softly. "I'll stop with that line of thinking because its far too forward from right now." My hand slid into his, and I moved over to the couch again, pretty much ignoring everyone else, although Alex was in Jacob's lap instead of Jason's, so I figured that was a step in the right direction at least.

"Yeah," I smiled, "It is too far in advance, but we both think and dream right? And wherever you are, I can always follow..." I laughed as I followed him to the couch. See, I was following him right now...

Once we sat down, I took a drink before resting it between my knee that I just folded across my lap, and I placed my other hand around Ryan's neck. I leaned in and kissed his cheek while looking around at the rest of the people. They were all doing about the same as us, just hanging out. It was a nice party. Not like parties I went to in high-school where there were people making out all over the place, pot being smoked, way loud music, and annoying girls trying to get down my pants. I laughed out loud at myself on that.

"You know, this party, or get together is a lot better than most I have gone to," I shook my head, "It's nice to not have a group of freshman girls with miniskirts and tube tops following me and my friends around all night. Instead, here I am following you!" I kissed him again before snuggling closer and sipping another drink. This time it burned going down.

I glanced around the party and nodded, leaning into Brendon and looking over at Alex and Jacob, smirking softly to myself. "Yeah, but instead we have a horny gay guy who is pretty much wanting to get into everyone's pants here. Well, except for Sarah and Jessica." I finished off my drink and put my glass aside as I stayed close to Brendon.

"These parties are usually pretty mellow. Even when we get drunk, they're still all about hanging out, listening to music, drinking, eating, and just enjoying being around each other." Sarah was up dancing with Damien still, and it looked like Jessica and Rick were following their lead. I started to wonder if they were dating as well. Tyler was trying to talk to Jacob while Alex was trying to distract him with his sexy body. Peter and Kevin were deep in discussion. Paul and Jason seemed to have disappeared.

Giggling softly I looked at Brendon. "We seem to have lost the hosts of this party though. Perhaps they're in one of those rooms with the door closed."

Grinning at him, I looked over to a closed door, assuming it was that one, since I hadn't got a real grand tour of the place. I, for some reason, found myself shaking my head a lot tonight, and this time, it was directed back at Alex again. He was a piece of work. I wasn't sure if I should take notes on his actions, or try to avoid all eye contact from him, either way, he was entertaining. And poor Jacob...

Turning back to Ryan, I smiled, "I like this much better, don't worry, it is a lot more entertaining," glancing back at the closed door, I titled my head towards it, "And if we start to hear some strange noises from over there, we'll have to turn the music up a little louder..."

Giggling, I drank some more of my drink, then just watched, ok stared, at Ryan. He was talking and conversing with the other guys and such, or even just watching around him. He looked so damn hot. And he was all mine. Just watching his eyes move, and his muscles flex, and even the way he pushed his hair out of his face...I was dying. Oh, and when he talked, his lips: the way they moved, and his Adam's apple...I crossed my legs a little tighter as I felt myself getting hard. That would be embarrassing...

I reached over and played my fingers slowly along Brendon's thigh as I talked with the guys. It was funny that there were so many gay men involved in the internship and so few straight. I started to wonder if there was a box to check off on the application as to if you were gay or straight. I didn't remember seeing it, but that didn't mean it wasn't there. Since it seemed that all the straight guys were roommates and the gay guys were all roommates, it couldn't have just been coincidence. Either way, we all got along together, gay or straight, guys and girls.

At that moment, Sarah and Jessica were dancing together, and they were the only ones dancing. Paul and Jason came out of Paul's bedroom, and I couldn't help but smirk and nudge Brendon. "Looks like we were right." I giggled again and leaned in to peck his cheek. "Do you want anything Bren? Another drink or something to eat? Now that the bartender is back, I'm sure he'd get you a drink of anything..."

Before I could continue, I had a lap full of Alex. I glanced over to see Jacob blushing furiously and looking away. I laughed and murmured so only Brendon and Alex could hear. "Lex-lex, you should be nice to the cute shy boy named Jacob. You're making him blush and you don't even know if he wants to be anywhere near your cock. Are you really that drunk that you're being so forward? Or are you majorly exaggerating?"

He smirked softly and gave me a look before winking at Brendon and resting his head down on my shoulder. "Why is it that the boys I wanna kiss don't wanna kiss me?" He was being all pouty and usually that broke my heart, but right then, it made me smirk and look at Brendon.

I bit my lip and grinned at Alex, then Ryan, "Aww, poor Alex," I mocked his poutiness, "I guess it's cause you are just so goddamn irresistible that you intimidate all the guys..." I tried, but I knew I failed. But, oh well...

I moved to get up and took Ryan's glass along with Alex's, "Babe, since you have your hands full, how about I got get us a refill and something to snack on, and you take care of the little sex kitten here," I smirked before leaning down and kissing Ryan right square on the lips, knowing Alex was watching. I pulled back with a smack and a hum as I licked my lips and shook my ass while I walked.

Once I made it to the bar area, I smiled at Paul, asking if we wasn't too busy for a couple of refills, giving him a knowing wink before looking back at Ryan and Alex, then the rest of the guys in the room.

I chuckled and looked at Alex. "He's partially right you know. You probably do intimidate guys. You never intimidated me, but then again I'm a different story, aren't I? You never oozed your sexual vibes at me like you are going with Jacob. Just don't come on too strong Lex, I'm not exactly sure if he knows if he's straight, gay or bi yet. Although I think he'd make an adorable addition on your arm."

I winked at Alex as he snuggled in more against me. "Well, he should figure it out soon. I wanna have sex. Or at least make out. And my friends with benefits thing is all fucked now that you got fucked." He smirked, and I poked him in the side.

"Shush you! Lets not discuss about my sex life. Lets discuss yours, or lack thereof. I thought you've had guys in your bed since we've gotten here. Or at least been in bed with others?"

He shook his head and sighed. "Nope, I tried, but no one wants me here Ry. Why does no one want me? Did I lose all the hotness and sexiness you used to tell me that I had when I left Vegas and flew here?"

Shaking my head, I ran my fingers through his hair like he'd do to me if I was upset. "No, Lex. You haven't lost a single bit of it. They just aren't as free and open with it as you are I think. Even though they know you're god's gift to gay men, they're nervous maybe? Or, like some of us, have someone in our lives already. But you know that if I didn't have someone in my life you wouldn't be having quite as much fun flirting with everyone else."

Taking the drinks from Paul, I thanked him and made my way back over to the couch, handing out the drinks as I made a second trip back over to the snack table as there was a knock on the door. I busied myself with the different food, making sure to get a napkin to put a variety on when I heard my name being called.

Initially, I looked over at the couch, but Ry and Alex weren't even looking at me, but then I glanced at the door where...WHAT THE FUCK? "MATT! What the hell?" I couldn't even form the words or had enough time to move when he came charging over to me, and giving me a huge hug, knocking my food out in the process.

"OH MY GOD DUDE," he yelled, "I just spent the last four hours looking for you after a six hour drive here, after having to find someone to cover the damn store," he started to explain as he stepped back and inspected me before hugging again, "I thought you fucking killed yourself or something when you just stopped talking."

"Oh, yeah, sorry bout that..." I started to get out as he slapped the back of my head.

"Don't you ever scare me like that again, do you understand?"

What the fuck, what was he? My dad? I held my head, gave him a weird look and mumbled, "Ok..."

I looked up when I heard Brendon's name and then heard Brendon say Matt's name. Frowning a little I looked between the two and murmured to Alex to get up before I made my way over to Brendon's side and slipped my arm around his waist. "Wow, you could have just called. If not Bren's phone, if you found us here, you could have found my cell number or Alex's."

Turning to Brendon, I kissed his cheek before going to pick up the food that Matt had caused him to drop. Paul and Jason came over, both with their arms crossed over their chests. It was their apartment after all. Pretty much everyone in the party had stopped and were watching. I threw away the food that had been dropped onto the floor as Alex came over and kinda checked out Matt before leaning in to murmur into my ear something that was complete nonsense. I chuckled and took the glass from his hand. "You know, maybe you should hold off on the alcohol for a little while. Go get Jacob and ask him to dance."

I gave Alex a slap on the ass and sent him to Jacob before returning to Brendon's side and looking at the glass Alex had been drinking from, I sniffed it and wrinkled my nose. "I think we're gonna need to cut him off early. He's moved on from simple rum and coke." I shook my head and put the glass down before returning my attention to Matt. "So what are you doing here?"

My eyes got huge over the whole situation. I apologized over and over to Ryan and Matt and Paul and Jason, but I knew that wasn't good enough, with Ryan by my side, I crossed my arms over my chest too, and waited for Matt to answer. And oops, I forgot about the whole not calling him back...

"I did try to call. Spence and I left at least fifty messages on Brendon's phone, and I am sorry for just barging in here, but this morning," he looked between me and Ryan, glancing down at our arms, I guess he forgot what Ryan looked like from the mall that day, "This morning, your boyfriend called me at like 5am in hysterics, and I came here to check on him since he just hung up the phone and didn't have the audacity to call back," he glared at me.

I held up my hands, "I broke my phone," I answered defensively, "And wait, Spence? He called? Is he here?" I remembered giving Spencer the address and stuff to the place, well, the apartment complex, but that was it.

"Oh shit," Matt reached for his phone and dialed a number, "Yeah, I found him...no, he's ok...yeah, um...ok, I'll come get you..." he hung up the phone, "I'm gonna go get him, I'm sure he'll want to talk to you too," Matt stated before walking out the back out the door.

Again, I looked around. Blushing and apologizing.

I shook my head and wrapped my arms around Brendon, pulling him in against me. "Its not your fault Bren. Just because they tried your phone, Spence had my number and Alex's. They could have tried us instead of driving here without. So its their fault, not yours. And their fault they are barging in on our party. Really, you don't have to apologize, at least not to me."

Paul and Jason nodded before Jason spoke. "Its no problem at all. Two extra mouths, either of them old enough to drink? Not that that really matters here since we serve pretty much anyone." He chuckled a little, and Paul grinned as he rested his arm over Jason's shoulders. "Mind if we ask why you called in hysterics that would cause them to drive here from Vegas to check up on you?"

I looked at Brendon and saw him blushing even more and not making eye contact. "We had a bit of an argument...Neither of us were right and it just went wrong. He called Matt trying to figure out what he did wrong and what to do, and I went to Alex. We were both a bit out of it this morning and all, but we worked it out and as you can see, we're perfectly fine now." To prove my point, I leaned in and kissed Brendon rather passionately before pulling back and grinning at our hosts.

"Good, you two are too cute to break up over a fight." They smiled at each other and I couldn't help it.

"Kind of like you two?" I just knew my eyes were twinkling as I looked over at them. They stammered, made some excuses and excused themselves to go call for pizza. I called after them to be sure they ordered a pineapple with no sauce before returning my attention to Brendon with a smile.

I smiled at Ryan. He knew just what to say to make things ok again. Everything. Every time. I leaned in and kissed him once Jason and Paul walked away, "Thank you Ryan, for not making this into more of a huge mess that it should be. And I do apologize for him barging in, but even more so for calling him instead of talking to you. It's just, since he found out I was gay, and since you haven't been around, he has been more of an older brother to me. And has been giving me more advice and stuff...so, he was the first person I thought could help," I pulled my arms around him, "I hope you aren't mad or anything. But, hey, look at the bright side, Spencer is here!"

I smiled before kissing him again, this time with more enthusiasm. I pulled back when I saw a flash out of the corner of my eye. Turning towards the source, I saw Spencer with his camera, "What the hell?" I laughed as I let go of Ryan to give Spence a hug.

Pulling him into me, he laughed, "The guys wanted to proof to know you were alive and ok and with Ryan, so I figured, this was the best proof," he pulled back, "But keep kissing, cause I need a better angle," he then leaned in to whisper, "Plus it was kind of hot..."

I dropped my mouth and patted him on the back, "Spencer!"

I chuckled softly and shook my head as I pulled Brendon back to me and nuzzled in against him. "Hey Spence. So, now that you're here, when you really didn't need to come, how long are you staying? Because, you know, you could have just called me or Alex to find out what was going on with Bren here. You didn't have to go crazy and drive all the way here from Vegas." I shook my head and murmured into Brendon's ear. "Its okay, talking to Matt, as long as he doesn't try anything."

I kissed the side of Brendon's neck before stepping away and grinning at Spencer. I went over to Alex who was totally hitting on Jacob and slid my arms around him. "You know, Lex, there’s someone here you may want to see. Give Jacob a breather and go hit on Spencer." Smirking, I stepped back to watch and see what happened after that.

Alex spun around. "Spencer? Spencer!" He damn near yelled before he launched himself at Spencer and gave him a huge hug. "Hey!" He giggled and just rested there before looking at everyone who was now looking at him. "Oh, right, everyone, this is Spencer, duh. He's in the band Ry and I are attached to, and Bren sings for."

I shook my head and made my way back to Brendon. "Do you think they're really into each other? Or Alex is just being over the top because he missed Spence as friends?"

"Oh," Spence made a weird face before looking at Alex and giggling, what? Could he have gotten a contact buzz just from hugging the guy? He turned into a giggly girl, "I SOO could have just called you," he leaned in to whisper, "But what fun would that have been to not get a free ride to visit?" he smirked and turned his attention back to Alex.

Wrapping my arms around Ryan, I looked at him a giggled, then smiled like a proud parent or something, "I'm not sure, but he didn't give me that big of hug when I came here, so, it can't just be the friend thing..." I winked before kissing him, "And believe me, I would never try anything with Matt, I luv you way too much for that!" I smirked before nuzzling my nose into his neck.

Another flash, "There, like that!" Spencer giggled as Alex still clung to him while taking pics.

I just shook my head and held on to Ryan just watching the two interact, and then Matt talking to people and the rest of the guys being social. So, maybe they didn’t ruin the party. And as they say, the show must go on.

I laughed at myself as I turned to Ryan, "So, where were we before we were rudely interrupted?" I asked as I ran my hands along his waist, sliding my thumbs under his shirt to feel his skin.

I laughed and shook my head as I slid my hand into the back of Brendon's jeans and tugged him closer against me if that was at all possible. "I dunno as far as Alex's side though. He's had some alcohol in him, he goes a little crazy when he's got some in him and he's very affectionate and tactile when he's drunk, or even tipsy for that matter. So unless Spence is ready for that, I dunno that he'll want to make himself utterly available to Alex tonight."

I grinned and kissed Brendon again before looking back at Spencer. "So, now that you're here and you've found that Brendon is just fine, safe, happy, and healthy, how long are you staying? And where are you staying?" I smirked slightly. Alex had space in his bed for one, although I kinda wanted to have Alex's bed for me and Brendon. There was the couch and all too, but having Matt and Spencer there would definitely make sex a non-option because as comfortable as I was with Alex being around for it, I didn't quite feel comfortable enough with Spencer, and I definitely didn't feel comfortable enough with Matt listening in.

Alex grinned and left a kiss on Spencer's cheek before he disentangled himself to go get another drink from Paul, causing me to groan into Brendon's ear. I was cool with getting a little drunk, but I didn't want to be the one watching over Alex. I had Brendon to concern myself with instead.

Spencer nodded as Matt came over, "Yea, if you don't mind, we would love to stay, but if not, we can easily get a hotel, but I don't have to work until Monday and neither does Spence, so we already talked about and can stay till Sunday evening at the latest, I mean, if we aren't barging in, neither of us have ever been to LA," he shrugged, looking at me, "So, you know...I wouldn't mind a couch or a floor."

I looked at Ryan, who, I could tell was listening, but had a stern look on his face towards Alex, who was getting another drink, "Yeah, that's cool, I mean, if it is ok with you Ry," I asked quietly.

Holding up my finger to Matt, I grabbed Ryan's shoulder and turned him towards me, "Hey, Ry, don't worry about Spence not holding his own, or Alex getting too drunk. I'm sorry, I don't mean to preach, but Spence doesn't drink and is always the DD, so he can handle drunk people twice Alex's size, so he will be ok," I pressed my lips to his, "Is that OK? I don't want you to think I am telling you what to do or anything, but it will be ok. And if not, you could always have Paul pour water or something into his drinks if you are worried."

I looked back at Brendon and nodded before shrugging. "It isn't that. I just worry about him being too eager to get drunk and the ramifications of it when he does." I sighed softly and shook my head before looking back at Matt and Spencer. "Um, well, we have a couch. Alex's bed is big enough for two. And mine is...well, very squished with two. So technically we have enough space for four. But, we've got tons of floor space. And if the floor isn't comfy enough for one of you, we can ask one of the guys if you can crash on their couch."

I nodded a little and glanced around Jacob and Kevin would probably be cool about it. So we could definitely ask them later if we needed another place for someone to crash. Sliding my arms around Brendon I murmured. "Sorry. I know I shouldn't worry so much. But...well...if Spence has any feelings for Alex, he could bulldoze right over them when he's drunk. I just don't want that to happen."

Shrugging again, I looked up at Matt. "So I understand you've been taking on a 'big brother' roll to my boyfriend since you realized he was gay, and mine." I grinned. "And here I'd have thought you'd hit on him." I chuckled softly and nuzzled Brendon's cheek softly before sighing. "I'm glad you didn't."

I nodded at Ryan and kissed his nose. I didn't like him worrying, but I knew that is what friends are for, but I also knew, was being Spence's friend that he would be ok in the situation. I just had to convince Ryan of that somehow, or Spence could show him himself.

Matt stepped forward to me and Ryan, placing his hands on both of our shoulders, "Thank you, for not throwing a fit and kicking us out for barging in," he looked at me, "Cause, yeah, when I found out he was gay I stepped back, hell," he smirked, "I only hired him anyway cause I thought he was cute, but that is besides the point. I just knew that from him keeping it a secret and stuff that he needed someone to guide him, cause I was in his position once too," he looked back at Ryan, "And the floor will be perfectly fine, I am used to it, and have slept on worse, so thank you again," he focused his attention on the only girl in the room not with someone, dammit, I forget her name, "Oh, I like this song, and I think I wanna dance," I winked as us before waving and trying his moves on the nameless girl.

Biting my lip, I smiled at Ryan and laughed, "Wow," was all I could come up with, "Come on, let's sit," I offered as I took his hand and headed towards an empty spot on the couch for one person. Sitting down, I pulled him on top of me and rested my head on his arm.

I chuckled and settled down on top of Brendon and sighed softly in content before looking down at him. "Okay, so if Matt is gay, why isn't he checking out the guys here but is off dancing with Jessica?" I chuckled and looked back at where Paul, Jason and Alex were talking before motioning Spencer over.

"Make yourself at home Spence. This is Paul and Jason's place, they're pretty much open for you to treat it like its your own place. Grab a drink. Paul's got everything from water to the hardest vodka you could possibly find. I swear he thinks his apartment is an actual bar rather than just an apartment that his friends hang out at. They ordered pizza, so that should be here soon too. And, you owe me a hug and to get that camera out of my face so I can actually see you." I grinned at him. "Have you been missing your manager? You were so desperate to get to LA to see me? Or was it the producer you were more excited about seeing?"

I looked down at Brendon and slid my fingers into his hair, playing with it softly before looking back up at Spencer. It was nice to have some of my friends from home there mingling with my friends from LA. Of course, I didn't count Matt as a friend from home. I still had my reservations about him. Although I was a little surprised he wasn't attempting to get into Alex's pants. I was pretty sure he had to have found Alex hot, and I was sure Alex would find Matt hot too, unless Alex really did have a thing for Spence.

I watched Spencer move around the apartment like he owned the places as Ryan played with my hair. I knew he was thinking about something, I could tell, cause he seemed to keep his hands busy as he did. But, I was thinking about something myself. Spencer. I used to be so jealous of his forwardness cause I was so shy all the time, but we made up for it, I guess. The whole opposite thing. But I was really excited that he was here, cause I did miss him.

Spence came back with a bottle of water and a smile. He hugged Ryan before smiling at Jacob on the couch next to me and hitting his leg to make him move. Now, in reality, Spence probably couldn't fit half a butt cheek there, but somehow he managed as he threw his arm around me and squeezed in.

Sighing before he started, "Yes, Ryan, the whole damn band misses you and Alex. We talk about you all the time, which I am sure Little Miss Pout-a-lot told you. You would think his puppy died or something when we bring you up," he took a gulp of his water as I elbowed him in the stomach, "What it's no secret you are head over heels for Ryan, I mean, come on..." he grinned, looking at Ryan, "And," glancing over at Alex and smiling, "I think I missed the both of you equally," but I knew Ry and I saw the glint in his eyes.

"Little Miss Pout-a-lot?" I giggled and leaned in to kiss Brendon. "That’s fucking adorable. But stop acting like your puppy died while I'm gone. Because you know you're busy, and you have your friends, and I'm only a phone call away. And as Matt and Spence just demonstrated today, a car ride away too." I leaned in to kiss him again before looking back at Spencer and smirking. "Missed us both equally, huh? So how long before you come out of the closet and admit you have a crush on my best friend?"

I giggled softly when I felt a hand on my shoulder and looked up to see Paul handing me a glass. I raised my eyebrow and he just smirked. "Something special for you. Something new. Try it. Hopefully you'll like it, if you don't, Jason will drink it." Nodding a little, I took the glass and took a drink, my eyebrows shooting up. Whatever it was, it was good. Very strong, but very good.

"Wow, that’s amazing. Does it have rum in it?" I grinned as Paul nodded.

"Oh yeah, there’s three types of rum in it. Enjoy." He turned and went back to the bar and I snuggled more in against Brendon, looking down at the liquid in the glass. I had the feeling Paul was trying to get me drunk.

"I'm sorry..." I pouted again to earn another kiss. Mmm, kisses!

Turing to Spencer after eyeing Ryan's drink, "Yeah, Spence," I giggled, "When you gonna escape that closet and admit you are a smitten for Alex? Or am I gonna have to read all about it in your livejournal?" I laughed at him. He had a livejournal that he didn't think I knew about it. And DAMN! I just blew my cover on getting all of his gossip.

He gasped like a girl and covered his mouth, "You know?" I heard him mumbled. I simply nodded, "Shit, don't tell.." he looked scared and serious.

"Have I ever?" I asked before patting him on the leg, "Your secret safe with me," I leaned in, "letoluver," I smirked as I said his user name.

Dropping his jaw, he gasped, then narrowed his eyes, "Paybacks a bitch."

I giggled and sang, "Oh! I'm ready for it, come on bring it!"

I laughed softly and leaned back more against Brendon as I sipped from my glass, the liquid making me feel warm all down my insides. I squirmed a little on Brendon's lap and rested my head against his. "You know Spence, if you want him, you may have to tell him. He's rather oblivious. And if he doesn't know, he's gonna keep going after other guys."

I glanced over at Alex, who was pouting severely at Paul who apparently had cut him off for the time being. "Don't get me wrong. I love Alex more than life itself. But..." I shrugged a little and looked back at Spencer. "He's a lot further in relationships with guys than you are. I don't want him to hurt you because you're not ready for it. I don't know how to make it gentle...and it depends on your view of things. Some would call him a slut. But, if you called him one, you'd have to call me one too."

Turning my head, I looked down at Brendon and murmured. "Did you ever think of me as a slut? Because of what I told you about my past?" I gave him small puppy dog eyes because I wanted the truth, but I also hoped that the answer was no, I didn't want Brendon to have ever thought of me as a slut. I definitely didn't think of myself like that and I didn't think of Alex like that either, but that didn't mean Spencer wouldn't if he knew how many guys Alex had slept with, me included.

Spencer sighed, "I don't like him like that..." before getting up and walking over to him and starting up a conversation,

Turning back to Ryan, I swallowed, thinking about my answer before actually answering. I wouldn't necessarily call him a slut, but experienced and all that, but a slut. Maybe when he was younger, but could be a born again not slut? Like the born again virgins, "Well, you said it yourself, I mean, talking about Alex, you guys are just more experienced, and that doesn't necessarily make you a slut, and Babe, I would never call you a slut. And I'm not saying I haven't thought about your history a lot, but as far as a slut, I'm gonna go with no. Your situation is different."

Ok, I pulled that out of my ass, and I was going to pray I said the right thing. Pray over and over again until my knees ache, my hands hurt, and my body goes numb. Or wait...that could be the side effects of something more exciting...shit, I was gonna burn for that...

Smiling, I leaned in and kissed Brendon. "You're adorable. My situation is different?" I chuckled and shook my head before sighing and looking over at Spencer and Alex. "Do you think he was telling the truth when he said he didn't like Alex like that? I didn't like, step over a line or something, did I? I don't want to fuck things up with Spencer. I like him. And I know Alex likes him, just, not sure he likes him like that, or has considered him like that. I mean, I think as far as Alex knows, Spence is 100% straight and would never be into him."

I shrugged a little and sighed, watching the two of them a little before looking back at Brendon. "Why is it friends show up and suddenly the party is all about watching them and all? And worrying if I've upset them?" Pouting a little, I finished off the drink Paul had given me and put the empty glass down. I was starting to feel the effects of it.

Alex grinned at Spencer as they talked, his eyes roving around the party, settling on Jacob, as normal. I wondered how long it would be before Jacob actually gave into Alex's advances. I just hoped it wouldn't be while Spencer was around. Even if he denied it, I had the feeling Spencer would be hurt if Alex ended up sleeping with Jacob, either in our apartment or his.

"Cause that's how you are," I smiled to Ryan, "You worry too much, now," I ran my hand up his thigh, "Let that drink settle and flow through your blood stream, and let's go dance," I smiled as they were playing a slower song.

Pushing him to get up, I grabbed his hand and pulled him to the designated dancing area and wrapped my arms around him, making sure to give him the view of the party so he could stare and think, "And don't worry about Spence, he is cool, we always give him a hard time. Alex just comes on strong, and he might even think he likes him a little, but, it is just a crush, he would never act on it, I guarantee it. So, for just this song, can we forget about them and just dance? I promise as soon as the next song kicks in you can go back to worrying," I smiled.

Pulling him tighter to me, I groaned in his ear as my hands slid up his back. Luckily this was a good angle so no one could see my hands, or my boyfriends now naked back, cause I was feeling him completely up and down, not caring if the shirt followed or not. I loved the feel of his skin. It was so smooth and hot and, gosh...heaven.

Smiling, I nuzzled in against Brendon and shut my eyes, just letting everything Brendon take over my senses. He was right, I worried too much, but I couldn't help it. I mean, what if Spencer had real feelings toward Alex? It had been forever since Alex had been in an actual relationship, he could probably use to be in one. Then again, I didn't know if I'd stick Alex as Spencer's first gay relationship. Although, I was Brendon's, but me and Alex were very different. I loved Alex, as I'd said, but he was much more forward and much more aggressive when he wanted something.

I sighed softly in content and kissed his neck as I heard someone catcall. I opened my eyes and chuckled because everyone was watching us, and it was Paul who had given the cat call. I winked at them and pulled back, deliberately making sure everyone was still watching, and kissed Brendon passionately, just letting the kiss take over and not caring how much we got into it or how much they saw. I grinned when I finally pulled back after several minutes of making out with my boyfriend.

Alex smirked as he stood next to Spencer. "Careful, Ry, you're making me hot and horny watching you two." Everyone laughed. They pretty much all knew that Alex was a horny guy anyway, so the fact that he was being that open about it was just funny. He looked over at Jacob and winked and I watched Jacob turn about fifteen shades of red.

I murmured into Brendon's ear. "Looks like Jacob may cave sooner than I thought. He's getting all blushed and making eyes at Alex."

Smirking and shaking my head, 'Well, I suggest we help our friend Alex out and put on more of a show to, you know, get things moving for him. Or do you need another drink again before you put on your dancing shoes?" I asked as the song switched to FOB's 'Dance, Dance'. My eyes lit up, "Perfect..." I grinned.

Removing my hands to run them down Ry's body, I grabbed his arm and twirled him around me. Spinning him into my body so my front was touching his back, I slid my hands around his waist, lifting his shirt little to thumb his hipbones. He had amazing hipbones, and I remember that I needed to remind him of that later. But right now, it was all about the show.

I attached myself to his neck as I swayed and moved to the music. Our knees met perfectly so that he could almost lean into me and would be my puppet as I dipped and moved to the beat. Hell, if I was watching I would probably get turned on too. I glanced up and saw Matt and Spencer staring and winked as Spence pulled out his phone. Ohh! Pictures!

Biting my lower lip, I let my head fall back onto Brendon's shoulder, and I slid my hand up over his arm. He felt so good against me, and I was content to have him like that for as long as I possibly could. I slid my other arm around behind him and gripped onto whatever of him that I could. The alcohol Paul had been feeding me had definitely gotten into my system, and I fleetingly wondered if he'd put more than he had said in the previous drinks he'd given me before. I felt beyond tipsy.

I groaned Brendon's name and pressed further back against him if I could. I moved my hips against his, pressing my ass back against him. We may have been 'on a stage' for the rest of the party to see, but it felt like we were either alone or on a dance floor in the middle of a club. I felt utterly free with myself, which was probably a bad thing because of last time I'd gotten drunk, only this time Brendon was with me. "Mmm...think Paul put lots of rummm in that onnne."

Alex smirked and called out. "Okay, I wanna dance, whose gonna dance with me?"

I smirked at Ryan as I smelled a light hint of alcohol on his breath. Indeed, the drinks were getting to him. And I liked it. A lot. Glancing up as Spence was pulling Alex to the 'dance' floor, I laughed as I ran my hands up and down his body again, squeezing his crotch slightly when no one was looking before kissing his neck. grabbing his arm, and spinning him back around as the group of dancers grew, so that we could all do it together.

Keeping Ryan's hand in mine, I dipped down and swayed my hips to the beat, laughing and carrying on with Spence and Matt who were trying to dance. It was obvious I had more rhythm than the both of them put together, but even more obvious that the drinks were helping the other guys, or maybe, they were good too, I dunno, all I knew at this point was I was having fun and didn't want to stop.

The song was ending, and I willed them to play another good one, which, I doubted we would be let down, but as everyone on the floor was laughing and goofing around to the 'Dance! Dance!' in their high pitch voices, I pulled Ryan into me, placing my palms on both of his cheeks and planting a huge kiss on his lips.

I damn near fell in against Brendon as I wrapped my arms around him the best that I could, kissing him back as deeply as I could even as I was feeling the alcohol and rum running through every inch of my body. I knew I shouldn't drink any more or I'd lose control of myself, but I was just enjoying myself far too much. I deepened the kiss with Brendon, pressing my body as tight against his as possible, and I ached to be feeling more than just his clothes against mine.

It wasn't until I people talking about the two of us making out that I pulled out of the kiss and rested against him, panting. I turned my head to look out at everyone else, a lazy grin on my lips as I didn't remove my body from being plastered against Brendon's. Alex was dancing with Spence and Matt, and I knew that rather predatory look in his eyes. He was working out who he was going to take to his bed, if it wasn't necessarily between Spence and Matt. He was still causing Jacob to blush like a virgin.

My hands slid down into the back of Brendon's jeans, my body about grinding against him even though I wasn't moving much, and the movements were lazy. After a few moments, I turned around, letting my back rest against Brendon's chest. The song that had come on wasn't anything that I knew, but there was something about it that made me want to move, run my hands along myself, and move seductively to the music.

I groaned into Ryan's ear as he was pressed against me. He felt beyond amazing, and I never wanted to let him go. Telling by his movements, I knew now that he was more drunk than I thought. And I was debating on whether I should give him one or cut him off. If I gave him more, we could have more fun tonight, but if I cut him off we could have a nice night alone in his bed just talking and touching. I also knew how I got if I only had a few drinks, once the buzz wore off, I was ready to pass out.

Oh the decisions...

Either way, I gripped his body tighter around me as we moved to the music. Nuzzling my nose in his neck, I glanced up, watching the other three. It was still entertaining, but really, Ryan's body and skin was more for my attention than anything.

Kissing along his neck, I let my eyes slip closed as I danced with him. I knew I shouldn't have, but I felt myself growing slightly hard against him, I just hoped he didn't mind as I made sure to thrust and grind myself into his bum. Reaching up to turn his head slightly, I brought him into a sideways kiss, forcing my tongue into an open mouthed kiss. I hoped the rest of the guys didn't mind the show, cause, well, we weren't hiding it at all.

Moaning against Brendon's tongue and lips, I kissed him back, just pressing more against him before I pulled away and turned to grin at him. The night that the guys had taken Alex and I out, and we'd gotten drunk and gone dancing, they'd told me later I was a rather sexual dancer when I was drunk. They said I danced alone a lot, but in such a provocative way that I had guys drooling and tripping over themselves to try and go home with me. They then said that I did an extremely sexy dance with Alex where they were sure we were going to end up having sex on the dance floor. I didn't remember any of it.

I moved to the music.

My shirt rode up and exposed my very low pants, my hips, and my stomach.

I ran my fingers over myself, touching myself.

I kept my eyes on Brendon at the beginning, but eventually lost track of my thoughts and just went with the music, dancing and enjoying myself. I lost myself in the movements, the mixture of movement and sound. My mind wandered felt more like I was in a club than Paul and Jason's apartment. I heard catcalls. I heard muted remarks.

I felt a pair of arms slip around my waist and leaned back into the body behind me as I continued moving to the music.

I moved back and leaned against the closest structure I could, which happened to be the wall. I honestly needed a small break from all of that. Come on now. I was a lead singer. I needed to get my blood flowing longer than this. I stood back and watched Ryan. I knew I should be with him, but if I was that close, I couldn't see him. Like. This.

And fuck it was hot. Very very hot.

I was far enough away to watch him and smirk at all the people shouting and cheering him on, but close enough that if he fell I would be right there to pick him up. I watched Paul walk over to Ryan, with a drink in his hand. A full drink. A drink that could very much so be for Ryan. This could be interesting.

Paul walked behind him, standing like I was before, and wrapping his arms around him. Laughing Paul shook his head, "Come on Ry, I know you can do better than that, so how about a little more rummmm to show these Vegas boys how the true LA'ers roll," Paul suggested as he moved against Ryan. Seductively, but in a friendly way. Most likely cause my and Jason' eyes were on them.

I bit my lower lip and let my head fall back against Paul's shoulder as I moved against him. My hand found the glass in his hands. I knew I shouldn't, not if I wanted to have any control over myself later, and especially if I wanted to be with it for Brendon's last night. But his suggestion and the fact that he brought me more rum, mixed with the fact that I was thirsty, and that my brain was losing control of my thoughts, I took the glass from him.

"Mmmm...rummmm...Paul, you know me soooo good." Turning my head, I pressed a kiss to his jaw before taking a sip from the glass, feeling the warmth of the liquid flow down into my stomach. It had a lot of rum in it. Probably a mixture of at least two or three. "Mmmm...purrrrrfect." I purred as I said it, sounding like a kitty.

Licking my lips, my arm slid up around his neck behind me, and I continued dancing and moving with him. It felt amazing to be dancing again, it was almost like going back to that night, but yet it was different all the same. Jason came up after a few moments, chuckling a little and joined us before he peeled me off of Paul. Pouting a little, I saw Jacob sitting alone on the couch and gave him a sly, rather seductive little 'come here' motion with my finger. I waited until he'd gotten closer before I grabbed him by the belt. "Yooouu need a lesson in being with usss Jacib. Looosen up! Have some rummmm. And dance!" I threw my free arm around his neck and started dancing.

I couldn't help but smile even more as he owned the dance floor. He was so goddamn cute when he took control. I missed that side of him in the bedroom, but wait, that was my fault wasn't it? I was the one who took control the past few times...

Shaking my thoughts, I watched him as he summoned Jacob to the area where the dancing was taking place. Hmm. Made me wonder about the guy, cause he did dance like a straight man...but, I wasn't sure. Pushing myself off the wall, I walked over to Alex who was dancing with Matt and Spencer, completely oblivious to Ryan's actions and Jacob being there.

Tapping him on the shoulder, I waited for him to turn slightly before I pressed to him whispering in his ear, "Why is it that we are over here, and our boys are together over there?" I pointed towards Jacob and Ryan as I hummed in his ear, "Interesting, don't you think?" I laughed, pulling off of him and asking Spencer if he wanted a drink before I headed to the kitchen area to get some water.

Jacob and I danced together, and he slowly loosened up. I giggled a little as I finished off my drink and put the glass aside, letting myself focus completely on dancing with Jacob. I even managed to get him to loosen up enough to dance with me much more like a gay man, and not shy away from being pressed against and touched.

I leaned in and asked him quietly if he liked boys or was strictly into girls. He only shrugged a little in response as he continued dancing with me until Alex pulled me away from him. I laughed and grinned up at my best friend. "You interrupted uss!" I pouted up at him and he leaned in and pecked my lips before tugging me against him and doing some rather complicated move with me that left me clinging onto him, laughing, and needing him to support me. My hand not gripping onto him had flung out and grabbed onto the nearest person, which happened to be Matt, and I dissolved into a fit of giggles.

The guys around us were laughing, and I heard Paul speak up. "Well, hm, maybe we should give him more rum! What do you think Matt? Should we give them both more?"

Chugging the water, I walked back and stood next to Spencer who was shaking his head, "It's like a damn sausage fest here..." he laughed as he poked my side, taking my water and chugging it the same, "Ry is quite the entertainer, if I do say so myself," he shook his head again.

"I know, he is, isn't he?" I watched Ryan with Matt. He looked so damn cute. Then Paul asked something I couldn't here, but I saw Matt nod and Paul make a bee-line for the liquor. That couldn't be good. I wanted my boyfriend to drink and have a good time, but I didn't want him to be so sloshed that he would forget our last night together. Oh, what to do, "Be right back," I smiled to Spence as I made my way over to my boyfriend.

Wrapping my arms around him, I kissed his neck, and oops...pulled him out of Matt's reach, "Babe," I tickled my hair in his neck, "You have never looked so hot before," I smirked, "The way you are moving, the way your shirt is riding up. And your pants are sliding down...you're making me hard Ry..."

I groaned when Brendon came up and said those things to me. My head fell onto his shoulder and I clung onto him a little and murmured quietly. "Bren...mmm....the rummms gone...thing Paul’s gonna get more. Can dance more. Duncha wanna dance?" I turned, pressing my lips against his before pulling away a little, giggling as I started to fall backwards. Alex caught me and grinned at Brendon.

"C'mere Bren." He reached out and tugged Brendon to him before he kissed him as well. He then directed us to kiss each other while he continued to hold me up. I moaned softly against Brendon's lips before letting myself collapse more against Alex, sighing softly and smiling like a satiated fool. I licked my lips as Alex moved to help me stand up just as Paul came over with two more glasses.

"Okay you guys, drink up!" Alex took one of the drinks from Paul and turned to me with raised eyebrows. I looked up at him, feeling a little lazy before shaking my head.

"I'mmm donnnne mthink." I nodded rather decidedly and tried to take a step away from Alex, although I wasn't exactly on my feet correctly and stumbled in against Matt. I clung onto him, laughing as I looked around for Brendon again. "Ren?!"

Shaking my head again. What? I kept doing that tonight for some reason, I reached for Ryan and pulled him from Matt's grasp. It was a small living-room, but it felt as crowded and as hot as a dance floor. Weird, but true, if I said so myself.

"Babe," I used my nose to nudge at Ryan's cheek who was still looking around, for me, I guessed, "I'm right here..." I smiled when our eyes met and leaned in to kiss him. The alcohol stinging my lips, "You sure you are done for the night? Drinking, I mean..." I asked, hoping he would agree to it. I didn't mind him drinking, but getting drunk, I wasn't sure if I would be a fan of it. I honestly didn't want to spend my last night here taking care of the drunk, but I would do anything for him, so I guess that would work.

Turning to Spencer, "Here, keep him balanced for a sec for me please," Spencer nodded as he wrapped his arm around Ryan's waist. Using my now free hand to tilt Ryan chin towards me, "Hey, babe, why don't you dance with Spence for a few, while I go get you some water, then you can drink more rum if you want, how's that sound?" I didn't even wait for him to reply as I made my way to the kitchen, smiling at Paul and Jason as I passed them.


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