This is Bullshit (48/60)
Title: This is Bullshit (48/60)
Authors: howido_fics & youbrat
Pairing: Ryden
Rating: R/E
Summary: Post movie snuggles and convos at night without clothes.
Disclaimer: *sigh*
Author’s Note: This is a co-write. howido_fics is Brendon and Spencer, youbrat is Ryan and Alex. Ryan's pov is blue, Alex's is red, Spencer's is green and Bren's is black.

We've decided to set an ending to this story. Our plan is to make it to chapter 60 and then end it. There is a slight chance that the last chapter number could change, but at this point we intend to end it at 60. We are not setting an ending to this because we don't like the story or anything of the sort. We still love this story and it is still very much our love child and we hope you enjoy what we have still in store for you.





"Yea so I was in the shower getting ready, and Spencer heard me moan your name while I was jerking off," I laughed lightly, burying my face in Ryan's chest. We were alone in his bedroom. Finally. The movie went well, we even stopped for ice cream afterward, but clumsy me, I tripped and the top of my cone fell off. Which, may or may not have been a good thing, Lord knows I didn't need all that sugar.

I wrapped my arm around Ryan's waist, as I linked my leg around his good one, pressing my midsection into him. I loved the moments like this, when we were alone and we could talk. Lately he hadn't had much to talk about, well, besides what Maury and The View were about, so I was glad he was able to get out and really have some fun today.

Kissing his shoulder, I smiled, feeling his skin against mine. I know I pissed and moaned about not being able to have sex with my boyfriend while he was healing, but being able to lie naked with him may or may not have made up or it. Moaning lightly, I gripped around him tighter, just trying to mold into him, to become part of his skin, "And needless to say, I got slightly embarrassed, then we ended up having a towel fight," I giggled, replaying it in my head, running my fingers ghostly across his ribs.

Running my fingers through Brendon's hair, I twisted a lock of it around my finger. The last time I'd really laid in bed with someone had been Alex before the accident. Sure, there were times where I'd laid in bed with him after, and with Brendon after, but it still wasn't the same. There was, of course, the whole thing with the cast. It was annoying and in the way, especially when in bed with someone. It was a big, rough, heavy thing, it definitely got in the way of getting some love and snuggling in bed.

"Sounds like you had fun before you showed up here...I'm glad, even though Spence perving on you getting off is a little...well, disconcerting. Shouldn't he have been getting off to thoughts of Alex instead of perving on you?" I smiled and let my eyes close. I was tired, being out and about while you weren't used to it after a few weeks was exhausting. It made me want to just fall asleep, but I had Brendon pressed against me, skin on skin, and I was trying to avoid thinking about the cast and my ribs. My ribs were getting better, I could tell since it wasn't hurting to have Brendon pressed tightly against them.

"I woke up to find Alex in bed with me. At first I thought it was you...then...then I realized it was him....he really surprised me. I think it was the best way for me to wake up...I never expected that he'd be there...and then...when he further surprised me by telling me he was moving home, transferring home..." I smiled and looked down at his head, still playing with his hair. "I think this is the happiest I've been since the accident..."

I laughed lightly in his neck, smirking when I saw the hair on his neck move as I let out a puff of breath, "No, it wasn't like that, he comes in all the time when I am showering, and well, I don't normally jerk off in the shower when I know he is coming over, I dunno, I just couldn't help myself, I was thinking about you and me," I lifted my head, taking in his body in front of me with my eyes, "Well, pretty much like this," I smirked, "And I just couldn't help myself from getting hard," I teased, lowering my head to nip at his chin, instantly curling into him more.

"And I can tell," I found my place back against his neck, letting my lips barely touch his skin as I continued to talk, "I can see how happy you are, really," I pecked him lightly, "I haven't seen you smile like that in such a long time, hell, I can't even remember how long," sighing, I traced my finger up and around his nipple, not in any sexual way, but just to touch him.

"I’m glad though," I started, and honestly I was. Ry would be happy, Spence would be happy, Alex would be happy, and even so, I would be happy. Plus, them living together would be an escape for me from the dorms and school work that I most likely will be stressing over, "So will you need help looking for places to live? I mean, with Alex in LA and all, you know I would be more than happy to help you out, plus, my mom's best friend is in real estate, and she can help you guys out too..." I trailed off, deciding the skin in front of me was more entertaining then the words coming out of my mouth.

"I honestly don't know. Mom and dad were talking about helping me to get a place for school. I know there are some places that are preapproved by the college because they're through families tied to the college, but I'm not sure that that’s quite what I want. I was kinda thinking maybe getting a condo or something, but an apartment would be fine I think, especially since I won't really have a great job to help pay for it, and probably Alex either. I'm not really sure I can buy something unless my parents get involved in it somehow. But I can't really ask mom and dad to buy me something."

Biting my lip, I ran my fingers through Brendon's hair again, enjoying how it felt to just have him there, nestled against me. It felt so good and it was definitely something I wanted to enjoy more often, but preferably without the enormous cast. I knew it was still a long time before it would come off and I was worried about how my leg would be all shriveled and disgusting after, but it didn't matter, I just wanted it off so it wasn't in the way anymore.

"I got so used to living in that apartment in LA. I was so comfortable there, it made me so happy to not be living at home anymore. I wish I could find something just like that here. I'd be fine with two bedrooms, a living room and a kitchen like we had there. I really don't need much more than that, especially not during college and all...as long as Alex and I each have our own space I think it'd be good...I'd suggest a third bedroom for visitors, but I think the visitors would be you and Spence...hell, we could probably be fine with sharing a bedroom as long as neither of us want to have sex while the other is there..."

Letting out another laugh, I shook my head, my lips sliding across the wet skin I had caused, "You know a one bedroom wouldn't be a good idea, you guys will both definitely need your own closet for sure," I joked, running my hand up to his shoulder then down his arm to rest at his hip. "But the school approved one sounds good, I mean, then you could get some help from school, or add it in to your tuition or something, if that is how it works, I dunno," I shrugged.

Keeping my arm at his waist, I played with his hipbone just feeling him underneath my fingers. It was such a contrast from all the action and interaction that had gone on through the night. As much as I loved talking and joking around, I also savored some good peace and quiet from time to time. Calm talks and whispered words.

"You smell really good," I licked his neck before pushing myself up to meet his eyes, "And tonight, you looked amazing. It's crazy how even after we have known each other for a while, you can still floor me with your looks," I blushed, "I mean, you, well, you know you are fucking hot and amazing, but I still haven't gotten over your sexiness at times. I could just look at you for hours and like, still be excited and entranced in you..." I bit my lip, opening my eyes big, "yea, ok, I have no clue where that came from," I tried to hide my face in his as I rubbed our noses together, "I mean, I just..." I trailed, "Goddammit you’re sexy..." I finally managed to get out, "Oh, and I love you to death!" I smiled at my ability to say what I actually wanted to say.

Laughing to myself, I moved my hands to either side of Brendon's face, my fingertips slipping up and into his hair just slightly. I looked into his eyes for a few moments before pulling his lips down against mine, just kissing him softly for a few moments before pulling back and smiling up at him. "I love you too Bren. But doesn't that go as a given?" Sliding one hand further up, I slid it into his hair at the base of his skull and pulled his lips against mine again, kissing him a little deeper and just a little bit harder.

I let the kiss linger for as long as Brendon wanted it to before letting myself relax out of the kiss and rest against the pillows again. I looked up at him for a few moments before caressing my fingertips against his cheek. "The school approved one could be good, I'll have to talk to mom and dad about it since they're paying tuition for me, see if they know how that goes. I think, if you don't live in campus provided housing that you get a break on your room and board, but I could be wrong. I'm not sure how that all works. I just want a good place...I have to look into options soon. Its possible that all the campus approved ones were already taken at the end of last semester and I didn't get one cuz I didn't look."

I shrugged slightly and slid my hand slowly down and over Brendon's arm. "We'll have to look into places starting this week I think. I'm not going to stress about it too much right now. Lex and I need to discuss what we need in the place and I need to talk it through with my parents too, work out what I can do and then figure out what I can get and for how much." I shrugged again and smiled up at Brendon. "So...tomorrow...is there a plan for tomorrow? I mean, do we have to leave here really early or something? You never really told me what tomorrow's plan was."

"Yea you guys will figure it out," I winked, knowing that they were more than capable of doing it, but wanting to lay my offer out there that I will help them no questions asked. Plus, I would like to persuade them into a central location for everyone. I laughed at myself, I was so damn selfish sometimes. I hoped he found that remotely attractive, because, let's face it, I could be lazy.

"Tomorrow," I sighed, not too long before a smile spread across my face, "We have a set at 3:30, so we need to be there when the gate open and then to backstage, but we can't do anything but store our stuff on the side of the stage we are playing at before 2:30. They have this huge detailed list that they emailed Spencer, and he forwarded to me, which," I scrunched up my nose, "I have no clue why I didn't forward it onto you so that you, as our manager, could go over the logistics of it, I mean, that is your job right? Well, besides getting your rocks off with the lead singer," I winked, finishing our kiss from earlier.

Pulling back, I smiled, "But really, we can go over it with breakfast. We are supposed to be at Spencer's at eleven, then we are going to load up James's mom's van and drive that along with Spencer's car in so that we don't have too many vehicles. Shit," I shook my head, "I'm so excited! And even more excited to be playing keys and singing," I couldn't stop grinning as I thought about it, "I know it's going to be hot as fuck, but, shit, a chance of a lifetime!" Luckily I convinced Spencer to run by my parents house on the way to Ryan's after the movie so I packed some clothes and gave them directions to the venue, since they were actually going to come to a show. It was all too much really and just thinking about it, I wasn't sure if I'd be able to sleep tonight. Hopefully Ryan could help me out with that...

I smiled up at Brendon and turned my head slightly, tilting it against the pillow. "If you're supposed to be there when the gate opens, don't we need to be there by ten, not leaving Spence's at eleven? Cuz I thought that the gates for Warped always opened at ten, show started at eleven and went till like, nine or whatever. I could be wrong, but yeah, that’s what I thought the timing was."

I furrowed my brow a little and reached up to play with Brendon's hair. "I just don' want us to get there late, and if we're getting to Spence's to pack at eleven and the gates open at ten, we're going to be late. Besides, aren't there other sets you want to watch? I mean, there’s a ton of other bands playing, some of which I do want to see as long as they don't conflict with your set at least. But I think it'd be fun to go around with you guys at Warped, especially if we get to have backstage passes...I know you guys will have them since you are performing, but did they send you extras for us? Oh! And what about a merch booth?"

I grinned, knowing I was asking a lot and all, but I was curious and we hadn't really talked about anything that had to do with Warped at all. I mean, yeah, we'd sorta talked about it, but we never got into the details of it. I yawned softly and nuzzled my face into Brendon's, just staying close to him and staying relaxed. I was going to fall asleep soon cuz I was so comfy, but I didn't want to fall asleep quite yet since we were still talking.

I laughed at Ryan as he seemed to be getting as excited as I was. Hell, he needed and deserved to, since he was the manager and all, and really, I haven't told him anything about it yet, so I guess that was my fault. Well, it was the bands fault. He may have been my boyfriend, but he was everyone's manager. And it wasn't just my band.

"As far as what I read, that is what the note told us, I mean, we aren't really coming in through the gates, so I guess we won't have to fight the crowd or anything to get in and get our stuff in. Spencer had it all planned out, and he would never, ever in his entire life be late for something or anything, so, I trust him to have it all taken care of," I nodded matter of factly, then pulled Ryan in closer to me, taking my original position in his neck.

I gulped, licking my lips, "And we each got an extra backstage pass, so of course you will have mine, and Alex will get Spencer's, so no worries there, and yea, I want to check out other bands, but I don't know how well that will go with me before we perform, I'll most likely be pretty anxious like the last time you saw me before I went on, but luckily your lips occupied my time so I couldn't think," I smirked, remembering our show at that chick's graduation party, "Oh, and Cute is going to be there, and I have to see them again, shit, that was the night you told me you loved me, so of course," I smiled, tickling at his side.

I let out a long yawn, "We don't really have a merch booth, but we get a half an hour slot at the radio station's booth to sell our stuff about an hour after we play, so hopefully people will show up for that, other than that, I dunno, we can just sell some stuff out of our backpacks, you know me, I can be a walking advertisement. OH! And Matt is coming too, he snagged some passes from a friend at the radio station."

"Wow...that was a mouthful." I grinned at my boyfriend and pulled his lips to mine, kissing him softly. "Lets see...good for being on time, we'll trust Spence with that. Good for the backstage passes, it'll be fun to see Warped from behind the barrier for some of my favorite bands. Boo to you being too anxious to see some of the bands that'll be there. I think you should just suck it up and forget you're anxious by going and watching other bands with me. But, I understand if you'll be too busy and want to just try and keep yourself relaxed. Alex can take me to the sets that I want to see if you're not up for it. And sure, we can go see Cute again. Oh, if you get there early, or send someone early, you should send them with your cd and a Discman, or an iPod and play it for those in line."

I grinned at him again. "You should do that, of course, you don't really have ones put together to sell...but you could do that to attract people to your set and all. Get some more people paying you guys attention and everything...I mean, its up to you and all....but I know I've seen people in bands doing that before. So its something to consider, although, its kinda late tonight to try and plan something like that..."

I leaned up and kissed Brendon again softly. "I'm glad that Matt is coming, the more support you guys can get the better, that’s how I think at least..." I played with his hair a little as I let my eyes slip closed and played gently with his hair. "I think you should have had a merch booth though. I think that would have completed the warped experience...having a merch booth all your own. But, there's always next year for that, right?" I grinned to myself, thinking about how big the guys could get and how many years of warped could be ahead of them. It made me excited for them, as well as for me.

"Of course there is always next year, we will be there, shit, we will make it to the Hurley or SmartPunk stage, no worries, there!" I grinned at Ryan, pressing a kiss to his temple, "Really you should have told us all this weeks ago," I laughed lightly, now in his neck, kissing the skin in front of me, "That would have made for better preparation for sure."

Stretching a little, I brought my arms back around him, enjoying the air conditioning and warmth from the blanket and him, "I'm just excited, and I want to make sure I have a ton of water in me before I go on, and I really don't want to sweat it up watching other people, I need to save my energy. I just, I can't fucking wait," I smiled, "I mean, it's the Warped Tour!" I shook my head again, "And now," looking over at him at his alarm clock, "It's getting late though, and I need my beauty rest," winking at him.

Pulling the blanket up more around us, I nuzzled into his neck again, tracing a line up his chest and around his nipple then to his shoulder, "I'm so glad you can come, since, well, in my eyes you are our number one fan, even though you got to us before we sold out and played on the Hot Topic stage," I teased, "But, I don't think I would be nearly as excited if you weren't going to be there. And that's for damn sure."

I smiled softly and held onto Brendon a little more tightly, just sighing softly to myself. "Well, I couldn't have told you weeks ago because weeks ago I think I didn't know you didn't already have all of this planned or anything. Besides, weeks ago I think I was a bit...well...preoccupied with other things going on than to think deeply about what else you needed to do to get ready for Warped. I mean, you've been before I'm sure, and so I figured that you'd already have had it all figured out, you know, in your excitement and all."

Smiling down at him, I tilted my head down and kissed his hair gently. "You're right, it is getting late, we really should go to sleep." Biting my lip, I played gently with Brendon's hair, just letting myself relax further and further, knowing sleep was just around the corner because my eyes were getting more and more heavy.

"I'm glad I get to go too, Bren. I'd be so sad if I missed it..." I yawned softly and nestled more into the bed, if it was even possible. "Mmm...too bad I have the cast though...I'd be better and happier without it for Warped......it'll be hot enough......then with this thing.....'it’ll be worse...."